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I had a bit of a jolt. I was listening through my old voicemail messages, and I stumbled upon an old one from my ex. It's been about 3 weeks since the Break Up. I've been doing fairly well, all things considered, but hearing his voice again was...akin to a punch in the stomach. I was frozen for about a minute, while my phone rattled on, saying, "Hello, are you still there? End of messages, to listen again press 0, to disconnect, press star..." It makes me grateful that the relationship ended while it was long distance. If he still lived down the street from me, it would make this much harder.
The strange part is the apathy that came out on his part. He just didn't care anymore. I guess it's just hard to accept that someone who cared for you can slowly lose interest. God, he wrote me a love letter, made me cute little CD's, wrote me little poems, cooked me dinner, brought me flowers and soup when I was sick...what happened?
I guess the reality is that relationships are organic, bizarre things. As Woody Allen says in Annie Hall, "A relationship is like a shark: if it doesn't keep moving, it dies. And what we've got are hands on is a dead shark."
So I deleted the voicemail. And all of our pictures together are off my computer, now safety placed on a CD. I didn't delete his number off my phone, though. I'm using that to screen. If he does ever try to call again, I'll know it's him, and I can decide whether or not I will answer it.
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Posted by NE_Girl on 2008-01-26 10:10:18 | Rating: | Views: 77
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Yeah, when they call again, it feels like you're going to throw up. Or when no one has mentioned them for a long time, and then they bring them up, you feel sick. It's like you have to acknowledge that they still exist.
Go find a nice handsome, moving, shark. (Woody Allen is awesome...)
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Posted by sushi910
on 2008-01-27 14:24:24
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I agree with sushi's comment. When theres a break-up I always feel the other person should move far far away, so that you don't have to acknowledge their existance. I live close to my most recent ex and I'm always afraid of what to do if I saw him on the street, as it would be like a punch in the gut. Just becareful about leaving his number on your phone - drunk dials are never cool!
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Posted by erynsmith
on 2008-01-28 14:32:35
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