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The last couple of weeks have been quite unusual for me. It's as if the whole world is conspiring to see how it can unhinge me. And most of it is just plain bullying. Don't get me wrong, I stand up to bullies, but when it's too intense or happens too frequently, after dealing with bullies I seem to become physically ill. I'm shaking, right now, just thinking about some stuff that happened yesterday.

A week and a half ago, a bully from a different shift came to my shift under the condition she would not have to work with me, basically forcing me to not work or to work in an area that's really not familiar to me. Management wanted me to work elsewhere, but my understanding is that I don't have to accept that (For as long as I've worked there it's always been my choice, and for several years, now, I have routinely declined). The supervisor gave me heartburn over my refusal, and I ended up throwing up a few hours later, and for several days after that I could not sleep for more than a two hours in 24. I came home from work, one day, having drank only half a cup of coffee right at the beginning of my shift, and I took a sleep aid and went to bed. I slept for two hours and did not get back to sleep until 15 hours later. Then I slept four hours and puked, again.

Early last week I was hassled by a salesman who just would not take No for an answer. It made me feel like the time my ex-wife and I were harangued by a Bally's Athletic representative to subscribe to their fitness club for a really exhorbitant fee. I ended up buying more than I intended, which really annoys me, but the guy just would not back off. By the time I left the store I was shaking like a leaf. I wouldn't call him a bully, per se, but I really felt badgered. If it wasn't for the fact that I really needed the one item in question, and was getting a pretty descent price on it, I would have just walked out the door without it.

Then, on Wednesday, a nosey neighbor came over to get in my face, on my lawn, about my dog and how she should be on a leash. My dog hadn't even left my yard. I just hate it when people who don't even know me talk to me like I'm some kid who just tossed a baseball through their front window. WTF? I'm in my 50s, already; I've got a greying beard, for Pete's sake! An hour later, I started having diarrhea and nausea.

Saturday, I decided that since my workplace bully had come to my shift and forced me to leave, I would volunteer to work on her scheduled shift but only in her department. But the same manager who backed her when she came to my scheduled shift backed her again on hers, but not without hassling me to work in another department, which I did not agree to do. So, after an hour of work, in which I did almost nothing, I went home. Not bad for four hours pay. You'd think management would be upset with my bully for that, but somehow I think they're going to try to blame me for it (all I did was insist that they stick to their agreement, it was she who pushed them to break it, thus costing the company money).

Having off the rest of the day, I decided to go to a party to which I had been invited. Here, again, another confrontation. It turned out to be a case of mistaken identity (someone pulled into a parking spot this man thought he was in line to get, and somehow he thought it was me). I had to argue with the guy for ten minutes before he even mentioned the color of the car, which did not match mine. The whole time, I was sweating it; because the guy seemed really quite enraged.

To top all this off, my ex called me yesterday and informed me that a former friend of ours had wrangled some information about me and my ex from another friend to whom my ex had confided about our marriage some years ago. Personally, I could care less what this guy knows about me, but I guess my ex ran into this man and his wife, and they made her feel like she had been a bad wife to me. I don't know if she was a bad wife, or not. She did things that really hurt me, but I'm sure I hurt her plenty, too. The point is, this man and his wife had no business breaking down another person's will so that they would reveal information they essentially promised to keep in confidence. That makes him a real douche bag.

So, for the past two weeks, it seems like I've spent half of my waking hours feeling nauseous, having numerous Hershey squirts, and losing sleep. Thankfully, the headaches have been few. But if this keeps up. . .

You know, I know I'm no great shakes as a human being, but I'm hardly a horrible person, either. Well, maybe in God's eyes I am, but compared to my coworkers, friends, and family, I'm no worse than most of them and probably a lot nicer than quite a few of them. I just don't understand why all of a sudden everyone wants to be so confrontational with me. I'm told I have good Karma, but it sure doesn't feel like it.

Posted by MyGallimaufry on 2008-07-21 19:22:24 | Rating:

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		Well, I initially came here to pick on you, but I don't wanna have to get in line. So...I'll just wish you well and hope that this week will be better for you. Cheers!
Posted by BootLady on 2008-07-21 23:33:49


		Oh quite your Gosh-danged whining boy, buy this new car, get your dog of my yard and get back to work!
Posted by bloodintheeyes on 2008-07-24 19:42:09


		LOL Good one, BootLady. Yeah, you're right, BloodThirsty. It was just a weird ten days or so. I get aggravation all the time from one person I work with, and for the last few months from someone else, but seldom get it from anywhere else. Suddenly it seemed like everyone was wanting a piece of me. In fact, less than an hour after I finished writing that post, the woman from Chicago called and said she was in town, again, and was stopping by, and when she came by she got very nasty with me over something really stupid. After that, things calmed down a bit for me.
Posted by MyGallimaufry on 2008-07-30 00:49:03