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well let me start off by saying that this is the first blog I have ever written so im hoping its going to be a regular thing, so please be nice to me.
I cant stop thinking about my ex wife today I still love her and still want her in my life even after the pain and suffering she has caused me by leaving me for another bloke, I spoke to her briefly on the phone and ended up crying as per usual. But none of this will mean a thing to you guys so let me fill you in on my life in a nutshell:
I was with her for 7 years we have 2 kids together, last year in August she announces that she wants to split and a few months later I found out she was seeing another bloke who was 12 years older then her. I start to do the usual such as stalking and making threats to him but to no avail, I was hoping he would run away. I move out of our house and spend the next few months living in diggs, she moves out the house in with him, I move back in, she then spends a few months telling me to get back together with her and we start getting along great. About 6 weeks ago we slept together a few times and spent a couple of really nice days out together and I think that I really do want her back. Now here comes the shitty bit she tells me that she is pregnant with his child and that she is sorry etc. So at the moment she is 8 weeks pregnant and I want her to have a termination and come back to me but she is scared and I think doesnt know what to do. I would do anything to get back with her I just dont think im ever going to be able to cope if she has this baby, and I dont want to lose what I have tried to get back.
I have spent the last few weeks feeling rubbish, it was my birthday yesterday and I spent the whole day with my kids which was nice but i couldnt stop thinking that it would be better if she was with me. I went out for drinks with my mates on saturday and she was gonna come out and meet up and then stay over but apparently he came back from his parents early so she couldnt stay but said she really wanted to.
I just dont know what to do I spent the whole of today sitting around thinking about the past, looking at photos and crying lots, and now im thinking it would be better if I just died cos this hurts to much I dont even think dying hurts this much!!
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Posted by MrMoon on 2007-12-17 12:50:45 | Rating: | Views: 157
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Mrmoon, i think blogging will help you so much, it helped me sort so much crap out in my head
your ex sounds almost as confused as you are, but it may be a little extreme to demand a termination, as you both obviously love kids, i don't think that kind of ultimaten will save your relationship.
you guys need to sit and talk this through, figure out whats best for all of you especially your children
i hope you feel better soon honey
if you want to talk feel free to mail me xxxxxx
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Posted by missmarie
on 2007-12-18 11:08:39
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