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Well I know I havent posted for a while, but to be honest I have had a hard enough time working up the energy to get out of bed. Things have taken a bad turn I could feel myself getting more and more anxious and depressed because she said she was keeping the baby but leaving him, she is still living with the fucker for a few months until she finds somewhere to live, but says she doesnt want to live at mine, which has broken my heart. Im not sure where I fit in with all of this as she has hinted at me living with her but at the moment I just dont know!
I went to the doctor on friday as I felt I was losing it and got some medication and some valium, and to be honest it has helped up until last night where I cut my arms quite badly, well not that bad that im gonna bleed to death but the worse I have ever done.
I just cant get these thoughts out of my head, I love her and she says she needs her space and I have pretty much left her to it this week but its killing me I feel so alone, as I sit here and type this I cant help but wonder if all this pain is worth it, do I just end it right now, do I just go for that drive and jump off a building, I just dont know I have no one!
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Posted by MrMoon on 2008-01-18 17:54:10 | Rating: | Views: 159
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Its not worth it. And it might seem like it because you love her. But when someone doesnt return yout love, it isnt worth it in the end. There is someone out there waiting to be loved by you. Dont deprive them of something so great and yourself as well because of HER. If time goes by and she doesnt prove that she really wants to be with you then you need to make the steps to move on. Because in the end she isnt worth it. You can do so much better.
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Posted by emotionalmassacre
on 2008-01-18 17:58:01
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i know its hard right now especially since you want her and the baby but if she doesnt want to see that then another girl will see what a great guy you are..No girl is worth you feeling this bad. You will find better even if its hard to see at the moment
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Posted by strong4two
on 2008-01-18 19:15:09
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a relationship takes two. and if the other person doesnt feel how you do, you cant make them... the only thing you can do is try to be her friend. i understand how hard it is to live like that, when you feel so deeply for someone without a return feeling, but it is better than not being around them at all. and she probably doesnt need a relationship right now, with a baby on the way. she needs a friend to rely on. that's how i was with a girl at one point. she was pregnant, and felt really alone, and i felt absolutely in love with her, but i came to the realization that she didnt want me, so i just tried to be the best friend i could be, and in the end, i think i was more satisfied than i would have been if i dated her. i guarantee that things will work out one way or another.
stay safe
J.F. Waterman
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Posted by tiberiusburns
on 2008-01-20 13:49:08
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I am so sorry i havent been here for a while, i am sorry things look so bleak at the moment for you, please try to stay strong, don't do anything daft, please xxx
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Posted by missmarie
on 2008-04-21 09:49:35
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