Hey everyone.

I am currently looking for a best friend. The reason is this:

It seems like I have been cursed. That sounds stupid, of course, but it very well may be the truth. It seems like every time I let myself get close to anyone, they either move away, betray me, get pregnant and too busy, married, or die.

The most recent time happened like this:

There was a girl I worked with who seemed cool enough. After talking, we figured out that we had a LOT in common. Even down to the way we were raised and our hobbies growing up. OUr religious and political views were identical.

She was even a very good musician and started playing drums with me. We both got really really excited about music, because we were both musicians and wanted to get back out and play.

We listened to the same music and have the same influences.

After becoming really really great friends, she went through some hard things with her roommate and I helped her change her locks and stuff.

On last friday, we hung out and had a great time. We played some music, had some beer and had fun.  The next morning, she said she had some plans to get coffee with a girlfriend from church. We were supposed to go out and put up flyers for a bass player on saturday afternoon. Then, out of the blue, she texted me that she wanted me to forget that we ever met and that it would be better for her if i dont call her or come over.

I have been depressed for the past few days since then because I didnt do anything wrong.

I think her church friend might have talked her into not liking me anymore for some reason.

I feel really used.

I am a 21 year old man but I still get emotional about friends because they always manage to leave me for one reason or another.

I am a "popular" person. I am actually the receptionist at work, so I come in contact with hundreds of people during the day,. but I still manage to feel alone most of the time.