I'm back home in Melbourne now.
Didnt think i was ever going to get back, so many delays due to the bad weather, our plane was meant to leave Sydney at 6.55, we wernt actually in the air until 9.15. But never mind, im home now and slightly buggered.

My homecoming seemed less then appreciated. While my sister gets a huge hug and passionate i miss you kiss from her boyfriend, i get a half arsed one arm "hug".
No kiss and i had to carry my own bag to the car, even when we arrived home my sisters boyfriend carried both our bags inside while my boyfriend just walked straight inside.

Its like everything is too much effort. If i want a hug i go to him arms outstretched and he just looks at me like im an idiot.

Maybe I'm expecting too much.

The closeness that my sister and her boyfriend have used to drive me nuts, they live in each others pockets, always kissy cuddly and laughing, always doing things together.
Even all weekend they were constantly msging and calling and being all soppy (ok i admit that would have driven me nuts)
But its like im starting to get jealous, like i dont want to be living in each others pockets but some affection and attention would be nice, i mean he pays more f***ing attention to poker, or his football team.

Is that how a relationship should be?

Its another one of those things where it gets brought up and he admits he has been acting that way and neglecting me, then for a week its good and really awesome and we have the best sex then its back to normal.

He always cracks the shits if i dont kiss him goodnight when i go to bed but yet i have to fight tooth and nail to get a f***ing hug. Whats with that.

When this all started coming up i thought i was a bitch for having feelings about leaving, and wanting more in this relationship but the more i think about it and the more the days go on i realise that this is just as much about him not making any effort and not listening to my needs.

WHere did this all go to shit. I remember when we first started dating it was like torture to be apart, it took an hour just to say goodbye and we used to see each other every possible oppurtunity.
Maybe living together has taken that away. I could suggest living seperatly again but i would bet my bottom dollar that it would not go down well.

If life was meant to be easy they would have handed out booklets.

Peace xox