He arrived in his blue truck... just the sound of it made my heart skip a beat. Then the sight of him standing in my doorway... I wanted to faint. My heart was tugging at my soul and screaming words that I do not have the courage to speak aloud. Why must I love him so much?
On instinct, we grabbed each other and pulled into the perfect kiss... But it got deeper, faster and there was so much heat that passed between us, It seemed endless... In no time, I was out of breath. Yet, I held on. We both did, it was like we were fighting for control. Fighting to dominant the other.
....finally I proved to be the weaker one and came up for air. Then that smile of his made its way across his face and I pouted. He won. That bastard.
He giggled. I love his giggle. Its so deep, more like a chuckle than a giggle. "Things never change." That's all he said before grabbing my hand and started pulling me to his truck.
He brings out a needier, greedier, more angrier side of me. I don't know why but every time I am with him... Its like anything is possible. I sit there is his truck and glared at him. I hate it, I hate that I love him so much.
He looked over at me just as we made it to the light, "You know where we are heading?"
How dare him ask me that? I have been to our place almost everyday since he left. Of course I know. The idiot, "Do you honestly think I could have forgotten?"
He smiled again. Damn it! Will he stop smiling already, my heart is already at the edge and I've just been with him less than an hour. "I've missed that attitude." Damn him.
We arrived at the park beside the lake in know time. He drives like a psycho... I don't mind. As we swung on the squeaky swings, I realized something. He seemed just as happy but unhappy as me.
"What's wrong?" I asked.
"I am usually the one that asks that question."
"...Smart ass." I glared.
"Do you realize how much I have missed you? How much I have missed my home? I hate it up there. I want to quit and come home."
"You cant... you spent so much money on this already. You will be letting your family down. Yourself down."
"But I have more options. I can help dad out with the shop, he wanted me to do that in the first place. I can go to a training school."
"I think its a mistake."
"What the fuck! You act like you don't even want me to come home."
"You know that isn't true. You know damn well that I hate living without you. I hate it more than you do. Waiting for one phone call all day. Revolving my whole life around you was a fucking mistake."
"You were going to break up with me." He said as he looked deep into my eyes. I hate that he can read me so well.
"I thought it would be for the best. Maybe we could have moved on with our lives."
"Hell babe, just kill me now."
"Don't call me babe, you fucking moron." I so wanted to slap him.
"I know you think that I am just doing this for you but I'm not. I am doing this for me. Stop being so self absorbed and pay attention. I hate it up there! I hate not seeing my mom(Stupid mommas boy), I hate not seeing my friends, and I cant stand not seeing you. I will talk to my parents this afternoon, whether you like it or not."
"Do not give me false hope. Do not break my heart, again."
"Like you planned on breaking mine?"
I glared at him again, "Oh, just go fuck yourself."
He smirked, "I would rather fuck you."
Even though the yelling stopped, the heat continued....and not in a bad way. God, I hope this works out.
My heart is on edge right now because at this second he is discussing everything with his parents and I am left to ponder...
I cant help but hope... I cant help but smile.
Maybe, just maybe, I will get everything I ever wanted after all.
God bless you all,
*Miss Nightmare*
P.S. He is suppose to call me when they are done and then come pick me up for dinner. Ugh, I cant stand waiting!!!!
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