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someone trained from childhood to be the perfect soldier.
That structured mind framed and caged in restrictions, never broken, but for a single exception.
Underneath the laws he places on himself, he lives simply by one rule.
And she understands that.

It is who you are, you were born from pain and so a spawn to the hurt that was inflicted upon your soul you grew into a being of caged restrictions, you are forced to grow and to never truly stay the child you are meant to be, you move from soul to soul sucking their soul so there is nothing left, it could last minutes, moments, days, months, and with everyone that passes through your body you structure them, because you were built in pain and therefore you were built never to be broken, never to cry never to let the world see you as but a mere creature, feeding of life and so coming to the fact that you are a mortal with weakness like any other that lives and breathes. A weakness that if you let people touch you, you will become like the rest of us, and you could never imagine your being belonging to the thousands that you have fought against. You are a soldier built to play the game of life, built with defences, built with the cold heart the pushes people away, you are winter when summer hits, you hit her with such ice that her fire dies and falls and dies to the coldness that you give off.

You place laws onto yourself, and when a soul enters that breaks all your laws and defies those that you set upon yourself you become angry, confused, and frustrated.

It presses you against a wall forcing you to see these laws broken in front of you and yet you scream and shout knowing it is purly this person that lives without laws placed upon themselves.

It is here you cannot understand who she is.

The soul defys the laws you willing place upon yourself.

Why?

never did she experience the hurt and loss you have.
Having been torn from people that would change your very soul.

And now you are the structured framed minded man, that at times scares her, because it makes her cry, she clings and hold onto those wonderful things so tightly.

she understands nothing lasts forever and it is why she wants every part of goodness near her.
And it is why you cringe at her laws of life
Because you believe if you let love in it will scorn your very soul, and there are no things to think about then beyond the day that you exist in.
You do not plan for the cause of failure
You do not talk of the future for the perfect idea will hurt and let you down.

Because if you plan of this perfect future, anything could infect it and you’d have to watch it shatter before your eyes.
And it is not the way of the soldier of life.
Built to be nothing more then a cut off cold heartless bastard to love.

Oh you will enjoy life and make friends but nothing will exceed beyond the barriers and the broken bridges that you’ve made.

A child to pain

is she to late to save your soul?

She sees glimpses, those little sparks in your eyes when you are away from the laws upon yourself.

Spark by spark you grow and how she sees the wonderful man that lies beyond those eyes.

And each time she hopes with her heart and soul that given time, spark by spark, it'll flare up to a star.

And what a beautiful star you will become.
But for now young love.

She shall teach you to defy those laws and break free from the structured mine framed and caged in those restrictions.

And you shall learn to become the child that your heart needs.

Free
Naive
And full of wonderful love.

We are mere light and dark dancing upon the ribbons of life, twirling and entwining creating a story of beautiful creations, and each rhythm shall show you the wonderful things true love can bring and it shall show you by opening up your soul and becoming human, you shall see how the laws can be broken.

.. you will become whole.

Because there will be loved ones, that will last forever.

And as much as you cant let go.

You will begin to understand love.