If I could tell the world one thing?

It would be that I will be ok, and all I ever wanted was for him to be happy.

Happiness in such a way that he doesn’t fall onto himself with his own problems, someone that will save him from the darkness that can consume someone.

Id want someone for him, to make him feel complete, and as much as I wished that I could be here, more than anything I would really want for him to be ok, not just ok, but he Is actually happy.

If I could tell the world one thing, it would be that I am ok, and that I want you to look after him.

Because all in all, his happiness is the most important thing, as much as I want to love him, as much as I want to hug him, and swear much more that I could be better and perfect for him, my feelings doesn’t matter as long as he will be happy.

As much as my heart would break and hurt, and as much as I would cry, no matter the tears or that true heart break, none of it matters

It doesn’t matter any of it, he will always have my heart, nor that when I am with someone else, I always see fragments of himself in someone else.

None of those feelings or lingering memories matter,

Because the greatest wish of all is to wish for the happiness of another.

So what would you tell the world if only one thing?

Would you be ok in the sack of another?

Would you wish them happiness, even though it will cost you your heart?

As much as want to love again, and most truly want to love him and have him love me back with all of his heart this time, I cant bear to have him like that, I cant bear to think that no one will be there for him, simply not because their aren’t people, but because he wont allow it, because he would rather push people away, than to truly accept love, because people always have problems, and people don’t accept that this happens, and therefore they can never give the person that loves them a true chance to love them enough,

Completely

Wholly …

And of all the things I would ever want, of all the wishes I could make, and the prayers it would take,
The most important thing I wish for is to have him be happy.
And to let the world know that im ok, I am a fighter, a survivor, but for someone like him, no I wish him all the happiness, because it’s the only thing I can do now for him...