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Intro
Hello bloggers, My name in the real world is Chloe.Online I use Mienai which is actually Japanese for Invisable.I'm not Japanese by the way.So mostly my blog will be about me,my life and my views.Just a way for me to vent about how I feel about everything.If you......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-08 21:31:46 | Rating:

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About Yesterday
Ok so my birthday was yesterday.The big 1 4.Yeah yeah yeah.Anyway.It wasn't so bad.Woke up at my dad's.Well let me shed some light on the living situation.I live with my dad sometimes and my mom sometimes.My dad lives with his girlfriend and her two sons.My mom lives with my grandma and my......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-08 22:16:09 | Rating:

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Thinking
Right now I'm in a moment where my thought process keeps going and going in circles.I think about something and analyze analyze analyze.It's like shit.Right now I'm thinking about Darren.We've never kissed but sometimes we hold each other and sleep in each other's beds and not just as friends.We......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-08 23:00:46 | Rating:

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Introspective me
Yes well goodmorning.I feel extremely introspective today.Woke up to early and normally that sends me into this.I don't feel like talking.By that I mean opening my mouth.Oh well.Who would I talk to in the first place?My mother?Sigh.So now I'm sitting here blogging and listening to music as......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-09 11:29:18 | Rating:

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My poetry
It's not all of it.Just certain selections.Hope you enjoy. This one is still Untitled. A tear streaks down my face I reach over to grab the knife Meanwhile your in a car together racing the bases This continued circle is now my life As your lips touch Tighter grows my......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-09 15:55:19 | Rating:

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Ok so...what now?
Alrighty then.I have been trying to write poetry about how I feel abou Darren.I write about things I feel strongly about and I do feel strongly about him.Why do I talk myself out of everything I try to write about him?I'll write something but i'll find so many things wrong with it I just end up......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-11 13:31:47 | Rating:

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Crying
Ok so i'm crying right now.So I might have like typos and shit.I dont know why I'm crying not really.I'm missing someone but should I really being crying over them like this?I just miss him.And I know he could give a damn.I'm sorry but I just know he doesn't miss me.He may like me but he doesn't......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-11 22:21:35 | Rating:

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I Never Sleep Past 8
and it's nine now.Shit.My head hurts.I feel less crappy than yesterday though.I have a sleeping problem.I can never sleep more than 4 hours at a time lately.LAst night I slept 8.I feel exausted.I have too much shit to do today.I just want to go to my dad's already.Right now it's not even because......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-12 12:30:02 | Rating:

| Views: 60 | Comments: 2 | Tags: sleeping mom

Ok let's try this again
Now that i'm a little doped up on some (legal) pills,let me try to put a better blog on for today.So lately i've been thinking...what if after we die nothing happens?I mean some say you'll be reborn,go to heaven,hell,etc.Well what if there is no afterlife and this is it?What if everyone's......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-12 17:49:57 | Rating:

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More about my mom and my sleeping
Ok so I got some comments and I decided might as well answer with a blog. Ok so with my mom.The truth of the matter is yes Iove my mom.I spend as much time as I possibly can with her.I go out of my way to be here for her.Sometimes it's just too much for me though.I'm not leaving her to worry......Read More