I'm just watching friends right now in my room and i'm just thinking about going for a walk to get some of my stress out of my body and everything. I just don't know what i'm going to do about things that are totally fucking bothering me and everything. I really thought that i had things all work out and figured out and i'm not sure how i'm going to handle the things that do bother me and everything and it's fucking wrong if you ask me. I'm always doing something to make things better but i can't fucking keep on saying that i'm the fault that all this is happening to me well i'll fucking tell you that it's not fucking true at all.

I'm not going to fucking play Amanda Peck games anymore and i'm tired of all the fucking bull shit and that is going to fucking stop and i'm totally fucking glad that she is no longer my friend and i'm so happy about that because she don't need my friendship anymore and i'm sure in hell am not going to play and waste my time anymore. I feel like things are going to be alright i have to make sure that i have my head on stright and that i don't turn the wrong way and i won't fee like a fucking dumb ass anymore. I really feel like i have to more on with my life and i'm going to do so if you al fucking don't mind. I have my own life to live and i'm going to do so and i'm not sure if i can handle it anymore.

I can't be friends with someone who fucking wants to cause trouble with people. I think that totally fucking wrong and i'm not going to fucking play it anymore. I can't stand and watch Amanda through her life away over a fucking drug dealer and i'm going to prove that she is a druggie and shit and i'm not going to sit here and take that shit from her anymore. I'm not going to fucking take her abused anymore because that just totally fucking wrong and i'm not that kind of person and i'm just letting all you know how i feel. I can't understand why she fucking plays the games that she plays and then can't fight her own fucking battles and she got to get this fucking kid name james to fight them for her to me that totally fucking dumb and stupid and i'm wanting people to know that. I can't fucking handle the fucking drama and the bull shit and i'm going to fucking think that i wanted to be friends with her i'm totally fucking so happy that i'm nto fucking friends with her anymore.

Anyway enough about that skank and everything. I'm just totally want to hang out with my cousin and his friend jeremy because i love how they make me laugh about dumb shit and it's fucking great if you ask me. I also miss hanging out with my best friend sam who i love and want to hang out with and do things with because she the best if you know what i'm talkign about. I'm totally glad that she broke up with her boyfriend. And i'm going to get the one i want but it's going to take some time i guess i'm not sure and i'm not going to get my hopes up and everything if you know what i'm talking about. But I can't wait for the weekend because i want to get out and have to fun again you know. I have so much going on in my life that sometimes i just want to forget about it and go out and have fun and have a blast with my friends and family and that is something i'm going to look forward to doing this weekend and i'm totally going to freak if i see my crush.

Right now i'm just looking for some songs from my favorite band name firehouse and they are in 80's band and i love there songs and everything. I'm just trying to find the song called bringing me down and i'm going to listen to it and see if i like and then i'm going to keep it and put it on a cd and everything if you know what i'm talking about. I also like this song called the meaning of love by firehouse and i'm hoping that i can find that and everything i'm going to be alright if you know what i'm talking about again. I'm sorry that i'm talking about music but it's apart of my life and i'm just hoping to know how things are going to help me deal with my pain that is going on and everything. I just think that i want to learn how to sing some of the songs that i like and i'm going to do so.

Well, Everyone I'm going to end this here tonight, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going for me and my life, So pace out everyone bye for now.