Well, I'm about to go and do the dishes because i don't want my dad to fucking bitch at me and stuff so i'm just going to get off the computer for a while and get them done and then i'm going to come back and finish my blogings and journal writing because right now i'm just fucking totally bored and everything. I just don't know what life is going to bring me but right now i can't ask for anything more then what i have coming to me i guess you can say about that and everything.

You know i have much high hopes and i just wish that things would turn out a lot more better if you know what i'm talking about. I just want to be the best that i can be and i don't have to worry about people fucking putting me down and thinking that i can't do things when i know i can and all i have to do is put my mind to it and everything and i totally hate that if you know what i'm talking about. I just don't know why people have to put me down all the fucking time. I just need to get out of my life and just learn how to deal with my own life.

Well, I just got done doing the dishes because my dad been asking me to do them and so i did and everything if you know what i mean. But i have never thought about anything else that would every hurt me and i'm thinking that things might have to change around my life style and everything. I can't seem to think of anything that would make me do anything that could hurt me or anything like if you all know what i'm talking about. I have so many things going through my mind and it's kind of fuck up if you ask me and everything.

I just don't know how much more of this i can take because i cry about everything lil damn thing and it's totally fucking dumb if you ask me and everything. I just don't feel like i have to prove anything to anyone and i can't seem to take my mind of things that are totally fuckign bothering me and it's not right if you ask me and everything. I just don't feel like doing the things that make me happy and i'm kind of wondering if that is going to make me feel like i'm not worth anything. I'm never going to know because i need to grow up in life and which i have but right now i'm not sure on how to feel anymore about my problems and i let them bug me.

Well, Everyone I'm going to end this here for tonight, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me and my life, So pace out everyone bye.