| View Blog
|
|
|
Well, Today was a very nice day mostly sunny and very warm outside so i went out and play basketball for a few hours with my friends form college and we had a great time if you ask me and everything. I'm just hanging out at home waiting for my friend Chris to call me because we are going to do something before me and him have to go to work and everything and i'm very looking forward to spending time with him. I just don't know what i would do with out him and Billy they understand me and it's kind of nice if you know what i'm talking about and everything.
I don't know why people have to accusing me of talking shit about them when i have no ideal that it happing because i have not been home all fucking day and it's starting to fucking pissed me off again and i was having a very good day if you ask me and everything. I just don't know why happens all the fucking time to me and it's starting to drive me up the wall about a lot of things but my life is so complicated that mostly i don't want to talk about it if you know what i'm talking about. It makes me so mad that people say things about me and then go and accuse me and think they are going to get away with it and it's kind of crazy if you ask me and i'll be there worst ememie if you know what i'm talking about and everything.
I have so much of mix emotions about a lot things going on in my life right now and it's kind of crazy but mostly have to think about what is good for me and everything if you know what i'm talking about and everything. I do have a lot of pressure about doing what is right and trust me i hate that feeling more then anything if you know what i'm talking about because i'm just trying to be me and it's not something i have to very well if you ask me and everything. I just wish people would understand that i'm not going to play there fucking games anymore and it's totally fuck up.
I don't appreciated all the bitching about my fucking blogs it's my way to say what is on my mind and it's totally fuck up that when i write a blog that someone always fucking bitches about me for it and i think its totally wrong i should have a right to say whatever is on my mind at the moment i'm feeling it and everything. I'm so fucking going to get all fucking pissed about things because i'm staring to think that things are going to turn out worst for me because of all the people that get involved in my shit and think that things are going to be alright well there not trust me.
Once again i'm fucking getting bitch at for the things that i write in my blogs and i'm thinking that it's fucking bull shit if you ask me. I don't feel like i have any more strength about things anymore and it's going to bring all my drama back and i really don't want it anymore. I'm just tried of all the fucking accusing me of things and it's going to fucking stop because i'm not going down for something i did not do and it's totally going to fucking going to suck if you ask me.
I can't wait for next weekend because i finally get to spend father and daughter time with my dad and it's going to be totally fucking aw some if you ask me and everything. I just don't want to go crazy anymore about things because i'm trying to have in happy day and not a fucking bad day and it's going to be worse if you know what i'm talking about and everything. I mean i try to figured out things and it's so fucking complicated and miserable if you know what i'm talking about. I'm just trying to find out what is really making me depressed and i hate it so much that it's causing me to think other wise about things that are bothering me and it also making me think about my past and the abused that happen in my past and everything.
I really don't want to think about all my ex boyfriends and the abused they did to me and to my heart and soul and i'm never going to get over that feeling trust me and it kind of scared me if you know what i mean. I'm trying so hard to get them out of my heart and out of my life for good and i can't move on if they are still hunting me about something and i can't fucking figured it out if you know what i mean. But right now i'm just starting to be myself again and it's great you know.
Well, I'm going to end this here, But i'll write more later, So I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me, So later all bye.
|
|
Posted by Michigan_State_Gurl_25 on 2008-04-05 20:32:26 | Rating: | Views: 55
|
| |
|
|
| Blog Comments
|
|
|
|
first of all sorry..cos..
i'm lil drunkl...rightnow..
second thing..aftea readin yo story..
i came to a consusion that you..
should...tak some time..oofff,,
take a vaccation,...gn..
|
|
Posted by dnanetwork
on 2008-04-06 15:53:04
|
|
|
|
|
|
