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Right now i'm just hanging out in my room because i'm totally bored and i'm also very tried did not get much sleep last night and everything. I'm so fucking pissed about things right now and it's even funny anymore and it's kind of getting under my skin so much that i just don't know where to turn anymore and who to turn to about things because i feel like i have to talk about it and get it off my chest if you know what i'm talking about and everything. I just don't know what to do anymore it's like my life has turn in to a fucking drama life and i hate that feeling that i get and everything.
I really hate fighting with people online and it's sometimes really gets me all the fucking time and then i start to feel sorry about myself and then they even play me or use me and i'm not that easy about things if you know what i'm talking about. I'm just thinking about things that are bugging me right now and it's life that people don't understand and it's fucking crazy if you ask me and everything. I just know that things are going to change and it's going to be in aw some weekend and i won't have to listen to anyone but myself and that the best feeling right now that is what i'm feeling inside my heart.
I'm not mad at anyone who just don't want to understand things about me and it's totally fine by me because i'm not sure what i'm going to do anymore about my own life and it's starting to pissed me off because i need to figured that stuff out you know what i mean and talking about and the same time. I just don't know what things are going to do but once i find out then someone is going to pay for the shit that they have put me through and then i won't give them the time of day to say they are sorry because i'm tired of this shit if you know what i mean.
I just don't know what is really going on with me anymore and its kind of fuck up if you ask me and everything and it's kind of weired if you ask me but right now i have to figured it all out and it's hard when you got people fucking bitching at you because of the things that you write in you're journals and everything and it's kind of get me and everything and everything. I just don't know what to do anymore and it's not good for me to get all stress out over things that happen in life because that just me if you know what i'm talking about and everything. I'm not sure on my own thoughts about things but i have my own thoughts about people who have use me or played me or done things to me in the past that are not good anymore if you know what i mean.
Well, I'm going to end this here, I'll write more later, So i'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me and my life, So night all bye.
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Posted by Michigan_State_Gurl_25 on 2008-04-03 22:23:37 | Rating: | Views: 44
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Hey, I've felt this way before too. I find that when I start feeling this way, the best thing I can do is try something new. You sound like you're stuck in a rut. It's hard to see that life can be better when you are feeling like that, but believe me, it can. I can't speak for you, but I can tell you what I did (mind you, things got a bit worse before they got better, but it was worth it. Change is never easy): I quit my job, which was doing my head in, started writing more, saw a psychologist, went back to university (which is the BEST thing I have ever done) and now, just from shaking myself out of the rut that I was in, the possibilities in life seem endless! Whereas before I could see no possibilities at all. Now my only problem is finding the time to do all the things I want to do, like spend more time bodyboarding (I'm a beach chick), learn new languages, keep up my uni studies, try out some new part time jobs, spend more time blogging...
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Posted by KarTish
on 2008-04-04 00:12:11
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