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what's going on with me

Well, Right now i'm just sitting in my room doing some thinking about a lot of things that happen over the weekend with me and my so called best friend aubrey who i really thought was a friend to me. I really don't know what really happen but i know that i saw it with my own two eyes and it's not cool if you ask me and everything. I was so surprise to hear that she torn my heart in to two pieces again.

I just don't understand why this always happen to me and i thought that things would be alot more better this time around but i guess i was totally wrong of whatever. I just wish i knew what all happen because i have issue about it and i won't listen to the people who are trying to tell me and shit because i won't forgive them. Right now i'm just not sure on what i'm feeling anymore because i don't if you know what i'm talking about. I just really want to forget everything that happen between me and aubrey and ryan.

I'm thinking about cleaning up my room because it's totally mess and i have not clean in a few weeks so i guess it's all good you know what i mean and everything. I have so much emotions that i just don't know what to do with anymore and everything is trying out to be all fake ass people again and it's in mature if you ask me. I'm just glad that i have figured out things and i won't have to worry anymore about all the bad stuff that happen if you know what i mean. I just wish i knew what goes on in other people mind but i guess i'll never know anything that i thought i would.

Tomorrow is going to be totally awsome because it's movie day with grandma and i'm going to have some fun and everything. I just wish that things would be alright with me that things would be okay because i'm totally torn between alot of shit and it's hard to think about that you really want when you know that it's not going to work you're way if you ask me and everything. I'm just trying to understand my evil ways but right now i just want to be the devil i can be and everything if you know what i'm talking about.

Somtimes i just need to vent about things and right now it's about friendship because you have to watch who you're friends are and everything if you know what i mean. I just don't know that is going to happen but i do know this that things are going to change i just don't know when through if you know what i'm talking about. I just know that things are totally going to go my way i just have to believe in everything that i do in life and everything.

I don't want to be devil anymore but once in a while i have to because it's going to break you or want you to do anything if you know what i mean. I just don't feel like i am the same person that i use to be and it's kind of scared me but i know that i'll get over my fears in life and i just have to have more faith in me and god and everything else that comes with it and everything. I just don't feel like my self and i know it's going to take awhile but i'm not in a hurry to grow up yet and everything if you know what i mean.

Well, I'm going to end this here, I'll write more later on tomorrow, So i'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me, So later all bye.