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I'm just watching the life time network in my room because i'm bored and everything. I'm just hanging out in my room because i don't feel like going anywhere or doing anything tonight i just want to stay home with my family and friends if you know what i'm talking about. I just trying not to get pissed over the dumbest things in life and everything that comes with it if you know what i'm talking about and everything. I just don't feel like being in a bad mood today if you know what i'm talking about and everything.

Yesterday was a totally bad day and i'm just hoping that i don't have other one tonight because i just don't care on what people want to say about me and shit because it's my life and i don't need people telling me what they think i should do and everything if they don't know the whole story and shit like that that is what really bugs me and everything. I'm just so glad to have my own life and not having to let people know that the things they do to me are not going to hurt me anymore because i'm a new person and that is how it's going to stay and everything. I just not have to worry about what people say about me and it's i have to say that matters in my heart and soul and everything else that is around me at the time.

I sure not have to put up with fucking assholes who think they know everything and run the world on how to deal with shit and things like that. I'm not going to play that game with anyone because i feel that i should not have to and sometimes i feel they are not there for me and how i see things is that you have to go for the things you want in life and not let people bring you done for anything but that if you know what i'm talking about. I'm tried of getting accuse of things that i never do and then when i try to say things people don't like to hear me out and i'm tried of all the fucking stress and drama because i am and everything.

Well my Spartans won there hockey game tonight and i was watching it on the tv because me and my friends did not want to drive to the west of the state because i was so tried from working last night and i'm glad to be home and just wasting time on the computer until have to go to work again because that is my life and everything. I really wish i could spend time with my friend billy who i have not seen in years and i'm hoping that he comes down and hangs out with me and the girls because we are really close friends and i love having fun with him and he mkaes me feel like i'm cool and knows how to have fun and stuff like that if you know what i mean.

Well, I've done so much thinking this pass week that i'm just so confused about things and i'm trying to find out why this all confused me most of the time you know what i mean. Do you ever feel like you just don't know how to hold you're own emotions and that you just don't know what to do with the emotions that you do have and then you get them all mix up well that is how i am right now and it's kinda bugging me again and i'm sorry but i just don't know what to do anymore if you know what i'm talking about. I just feel like people are trying to take advantage of me and it's not cool people i'm totally mess up in the head and i need a clean mind to start with if you know what i mean again.

Well, I'm going to end this here, But i promised to write more tomorrow, So i'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me and my life bye.