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I'm tired of Amanda fucking bull shit and the mind games that come with it. I just can't stand this shit anymore and I'm going to put a fucking stop to it and everything. I'm just wondering what the fucking bitch is staying about me behind my back and everything. I'm totally can't handle the lies that she fucking tells me and shit and it's something i don't want to go through. To me I'm thinking that she just a trash whore who needs to fucking grow up and ask her fucking age because right now I'm acting my age and it's only fair that she needs to stop giving out my number to people that i don't know and they i won't have a problem with it.

I just can't stand people wh0 lie to me and they go back and tell me that they did not do it and i'm like amanda just tell me the truth and i won't be mad at you and everything. I just don't understand why she has to fucking play mind games with me and it's going to get on my case because im tired of playing this fucking game that is something i'm not going down for and she is going to go down for all the shit that she has done to me and i'm going to make sure of it. Then i'm going to fuck up her relationship with her dumb ass boyfriend who is on drugs and lying to amanda about that and it's something i'm going to make sure that she and he both go to jail for and everything. I'm also tried of her always calling me all hours of the night because most of the time i'm sleeping and it's drives me crazy and nuts at the same time.

I just don't think she is every going to learn how to treat her friends with respect. Because i have this feeling she has done this to there people and she has also told me that she does sleep around with other guys and don't use condoms and i'm thinking what a fucking whore and everything. I just don't understand any of this and i'm not going to because it really makes my head hurt and everything if you know what i'm talking about. I'm just thinking that a trash whore like amanda peck needs to stop all her fucking shit and just more on with her life and i'm going to make sure that her drug ass boyfriend leaves her ass because i would totally think that was funny and everything if you ask me and everything. I'm totally tried of the fucking games that she plays with me and it's stress level is not good if you ask me but sometimes i'm starting to wonder what she is really doing and why how come she treats me like shit all the fucking time.

But anyway I just don't want to talk about her anymore because right now i'm thinking that she is nothing to me and not even worth my fucking time and i'm hating everything about her right now and it's all her fucking fault and like i said she is going to fucking pay for the shit she has done to me and it's not going to be pretty. I'm tried of people taking advantage of me and then annoyed me and aggravated me about dumb things and that is what amanda does to me all the fucking time and it's gets really fucking old if you ask me. I'm just thinking about things that goes on in my life and it's not all that good if you know what i'm talking about. I just don't feel like things are ever going to change with me and amanda because all she does is use me for my friendship and i'm always thinking that she is talking about me and everything.

I'm sitting in my room watching it snow outside and it's nice to see if you know what i'm talking about. But i was going to go out tonight to a friends house and hang out after work but i'm thinking that i might want to come home because i'm tried if you know what i'm talking about and everything. I really don't mind the snow and it's going to be like a winter wonder land after it's all done snowing and everything, early today we had nothing but rain and it was making me sleepy and shit and now it's snowing and i'm not sure when it started but i'm kinda loving it because i might go out and play in it like kid again if you now what i'm talking about.

Well i'm going to end this here. I promised to write more tomorrow, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me bye for now.