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Right now I'm just thinking about everlasting love and why does it hurt so much when someone you thought that you loved hurts you so much that you just don't know how to live and how to pick up the pieces that have been damaged and everything. I'm really tired of people who have the great relationship with there boyfriends or girlfriends because it really makes me miss the one that i have and I'm always tired of picking up the damaged pieces that you are never going to find where they go in life and sometimes i feel like it's totally fuck up if you ask me and everything. But I just want to find love again something that not going to hurt me in the long run and i keep thinking about my friends that have been there for me through thick and thin and I'm going to list them here in a few minutes. I been doing a lot of thinking about my crush Jeremy who I'm hoping to see this weekend and it's going to be awesome if you ask me and everything. I just think he is the right person that i should be with.
I want to think that things are totally going to be better but mostly i have been thinking that I'm not going to get through this lonely sage that i am in by myself so i need to turn to my friends that know me the best and understand me and things like that and I'm not saying that it's going to be bad or anything but i just know what i want in life and it's not easy being alone all the time and having to miss that someone in you're arms and in you're bed and everything else I'm thinking about in my head right now at this moment in time and everything. So I have been wondering this for a long time that i just can't seem to understand why things always get so fucking screw up and i can't understand myself because things are never going to be the same or they are never going to be the right and I'm not sure if i can handle that kind of pain anymore because i know for a fact that my heart can't and I'm not going to let it go through that again and everything.
Bobby, You have totally been there for me through a lot of my relationships that I've had and you are my best guy friend and no other guy is going to take that away from you and everything. I have faith in you and no matter on what happens that I'm always going to be there for you and that never going to change because i love you to death and you are like my brother and family and that means a lot to me and I'm never going to hurt you or break up our friendship because me and you we are so close that we share a lot of things to each other and I'm happy for you and everything that you do in life because I'm always going to be apart of you're life and you are going to always be apart of my life as well and i love you bro don't you ever change bobby because i love u to death.
Kristina, I've only known you for five months and i really love the fact about you that i can sit and talk to you about anything that is bothering me and you listen to me and you don't judge me and i don't judge you and i also sit and listen to you and i know what it's like when you have people who judge you and you just wish that they didn't i know how you feel on that. And i also feel like we are going through a lot of the same problems and i feel that we can also help each other and I'm always going to feel like you are apart of my life and going to stay that way. I also think of you as other sister because you were there for me when all the shit started with that girl Amanda peck. And i just wanted to think you and hopefully that we can come and see each other and hang out because i think that would be totally fucking awesome and everything. And i don't want you to ever change because i love you to death as a friend and everything.
Tony, You are my cousin and i wanted to thank you for everything you have done for me in the past and everything when we was in school because you left me to go to go to other school. I have always had high hopes for you and my dreams have come true for you and I'm always going to always be on you're side when it comes to people fucking with you because you're family and i totally would not change that for the world if you know what I'm talking about. I always love hanging out with you in the bars when i do get to see you and I'm totally want you to know that i have you on my mind all the time and you are always going to have a place in my heart no matter what i love u tony you are everything to me that i wish i could never ask for and you are a sweetheart don't ever change that about you're self and don't worry about what people are doing to you because you have you're family behind you and that me all the way baby don't you worry i have you're back always forever. Tony me and you are like best friends and i know that we are close family but i still feel like i can say anything to you and you won't go off and tell people and everything. I don't want to lose u because i would totally be lost without you and everything please be safe and everything.
Nikki, I know that i met you on hi5 last year or the year ago but i also know that we have lost touch and you finally find me again and that cool that you wrote in my book on hi5. I'm totally wanted you to know that you also have a place in my heart and you are also a friend to me that makes me feel good inside because I'm thanking a lot of people that have been there for me and you are one of them and i just wanted you to know that and everything. I'm always going to be there for you if a guy ever fucks with you I'll be there for you so you can tell me what is going down and i can help you keep you're head up and be strong because that what you need in life and everything. I just hope that onces you get older that maybe me and you can hang out and stuff but that only if you want to because i don't mind if you know what I'm talking about. But anyway don't you ever change one thing about you're self because you are pretty and you are smart so don't ever let a guy tell you other wise because that guy is not worth it if you know what i mean thanks for being my friend.
Jeremy, My cousin tony best friend. I'm glad that i totally met you and everything. Because i have seen you in different bars but never had the chance to come up and talk to you because i was scared to or i just did not know what to say or anything like that. But that night when we started to talk at calm digger i felt like a totally cute pretty angel and i was hoping that i might get you to have some fun with me sometime when you're not busy and I'm hoping that you and tony might come up hunting with me that would be totally fucking awesome if you ask me. So i just wanted to say i do have a crush on you and that never going to change because you're totally awesome in my book and i want to get to know you more and I'm hoping to see you this weekend.
Sam, I've known you since high school and we use to hang out at lunch together and we would talk about matt the guy you use to like and everything. I think of you as my best friend and you will always be that to me and I'm totally going to be there for you because you have been there for me through thick and thin and you also heard me cry about things and you just listen to me and i also listen to you and everything and i feel like we are close and i want to hang out with you so much because i know we could find trouble to get in to and everything. I just wanted to say i love you as my other sister and I'm hoping that you find what you are looking for in you're life. Because i totally love you to death and you are my best friend forever and always.
Tj, Wow what can i say about you. I have known you for along time and you was my first love and my first kiss and my ever first boyfriend when i was eighteen years old oh my fucking god. I still think about you now that we have lost touch and i have not heard from you single like three year ago or something like that but you're totally fucking awesome and we use to talk about a lot of things and the one memory i have is when we would get off the phone you would say I love U Kristen and that would bring chills to my spine and everything. I feel that you have know me the longest and you have seen my ups and downs and everything else i have in the past you know what i mean. I know that i have changed and i know that you have changed as well but please don't you ever forget me because that would be a totally lost in my book and i still think about you from time to time so i have to wonder what it would be like if we was still together and that we would be married and have our own kids thats always in my mind and i just wanted to share that and everything.
Nick, I met you in yahoo games called canasta and we hit if off right away and I'm totally happy that me and you are friends but that is only because you have find someone else and I'm not going to judge you on that because you know that I'm not that kind of person and never well i if you know what I'm talking about and everything. I'm just glad that i have met you and we are very good friends and I'm hoping that we can hang out and i can met you're girlfriend and get to know her and hang out with her and everything. I'm totally being honest with you and i love the fact that you sometimes understand me and don't judge me and I'm not going to forget that so anyway you are every forget me and the times that i have sat and talk to you and everything.
Amanda Dewitt, You and i met on net log, And I'm totally glad that i have met you because you have treated me like a friend and not some kind of weird person and you are a very close friend to me and I'm going to keep in touch with you and I'm hopefully going to give you a call and talk to you on the phone and maybe i can come up there and hang out with you for a week or two because you are one of my best friend and i have few but i have to say you have been there when i was having problems with that girl Amanda Peck and I'm graceful for you're friendship and you always bring me a smile when we are talking on Msn messenger and that a great feeling that i have you know and i'm totally going to say you have a place in my heart and you will always have that you are like a sister to me and that is the great feeling because i can't help that me and you are so close and we just get along so good that means the world to me and everything.
John Proost, You also have been a very great friend to me and i could not ask for anything better then a friend like you that talks to me and wants to know me and stuff like that and i love the fact that you also don't judge me and that a good thing in my book. I know that you have a crush on me but i just think that we are better off as friends that is how i feel about you and everything. I'm so being honest with you and that is what makes a great friendship and stuff like that I'm just hoping that you understand me on that one and everything. Please don't ever change you're ways because you are totally awesome and i hope that you stay that way and everything.
Sara, I'm so sorry that you're husband James hill hurt you like that and everything, And i did not want to be the girl that hurt you because I'm totally don't understand why he told me all the things that he did and i knew what i was doing was wrong but i believe that he loved me and i know that you thought the same way and I'm totally wanted to say that I'm sorry and i won't do this again because I'm never letting a guy come between me and my friends i think that totally wrong and i just don't think that right if you ask me and everything. I so think that James is a fucking cheater and you could do much better and i hope that you find someone who loves you for who you are and not some sex slave because you don't need that in you're life and everything.
Well, Now i have added a few more friends to my list of thanks you and everything. Because they are my true friends that i have put in my blog and journal today and they are like family and they know how to treat me right and with respceted and that i don't have to worry about them all hurting me and acting like fake people like some people i know and everything. So i just wanted to say that they are always going to be in my heart and they have a place in my heart for everything that they do is good and everything. I don't want anymore damaged to my heart and soul and everything.
Well, Everyone I'll end this here for the morning, I'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me and my life, So pace out everyone, Bye for now.
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Posted by Michigan_State_Gurl_25 on 2008-05-24 07:45:42 | Rating: | Views: 29
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