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Today I'm doing a lot more better with my break downs. I have not had a break down since Friday and i'm learning to deal with it all and i'm just hopping that i can work through this and hopefully i can go a week with out having a other break down. I just don't know why this always happen to me but i guess it's going to be alright because i'm learning that i can handle myself and i know that it's going to take a day or two to learn about myself and how i'm going to handle my ways and my problems and troubles and everything. I'm just trying to get myself back on track and it's going to be a long road but i now that i have the strength to do it and everything.
I'm just hanging out in my room and watching tv because i'm really bored and everything. I've been doing a lot of thinking about my heath and everything. I just know that things have not been right with me since last weekend and i have to do something about it or it's going to take over my life and i really don't want that to happen to me if you know what i'm talking about. I'm not always this way i have my days where i'm just happy and go lucky and then the next day i'm a bitch and i don't want to be mess with and it's not something i have control over if you ask me. I'm just trying to get through this as best as i can and it's hard but i have my friends and family to help me through anything if you ask me and everything. I have all this going to through my mind and it does scared me.
I always thought that things in my life would be great but then i always get to thinking that i could be wrong about a lot of things and it's totally wrong if you ask me and everything. I just want to live a life that i can be proud of and it's not my fault that i have to go back and figured out more things about myself. I have to get my head away from all the drama and it's going to take a few days but i know that i can do anything that i put my mind to because i'm sweet and loving girl who needs someone to help her through this rough time. I just don't know where my head been but i do know this is that i have a lot going for me and it's not going to take over my life because i won't let it and everything. But i have my ways on learning how to be better.
I just trying to make things better for myself and everything. I just want my happy life back and it's not going to be right but i know in my heart that i can do whatever i put my mind to and everything. Well i just hope that things are going to be the way i knew they would and everything and it's not something i can handle if you know what i mean and everything. I just know what i really want in life and that is just to have my old life back and i'm not sure how i'm doing to do that but i know in time that i will and everything. But things are going to turn up for me because i really have to have god help me if you know what i mean.
Well, I'm going to end this here. But i'll write more later, So i'll keep you all updated on how things are going with me and everything. So later all bye.
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i will pray for you,stay strong,Godbless
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Posted by bjm1
on 2008-03-09 22:59:44
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NOTE: Just read the first paragraph.
Good that you haven't had a break down in a while. I've had the same sort of thing happen to me and it can be tiring.
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Posted by SubTomato
on 2008-03-10 02:24:00
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