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It’s been almost a week since I last posted a blog, although I’m not sure anybody besides Prelude noticed. I’ve had things going on which might have made for an interesting blog but, quite honestly, I just couldn’t motivate to put pen to paper or, more accurately, fingertips to keyboard. I have now been duly inspired by the most surprising muses; two late 20-something pricks at the pool on the roof of my building. The two guys who, admittedly, are relatively good looking, chose lounge chairs within hearing distance of mine and began talking about their friend who wasn’t there because he was probably still with "the fat chick he had gone home with last night". To quote: “He likes fat chicks. Well, not fat; just girls with big breasts and fat asses. But it’s good that someone likes those girls since it takes them off the market”. Then they went into detail about the various girls in their own dating rotations. Please. I would hate to be one of the girls they likely wine, dine and screw only to disrespect in front of their friends. I know these guys are not representative of all men, but they do make my own trust issues when it comes to men more plausible. They also brought to the surface the pain I experienced when I was recently let down by a guy I did trust with my feelings.
Anyway, updates on me. Colt 45 and I are officially friends and no awkward conversation was required! He sent me a friend request on Facebook which read “I get that there’s no love connection, but I’m cool and you’re cool so, unless it would make you uncomfortable, let’s be friends”. I was so happy that I immediately accepted his request and told him I’d love to be his friend, on Facebook and off.
I never heard from Aw Shucks. Aw shucks!!
I have a date tomorrow with a guy from Match. We talked on the phone for an hour earlier this week and I liked him. He was interesting, made me laugh, seems intelligent, called when he said he’d call and, from his pictures, is cute too. My one concern is that he loved my profile, thinks I’m adorable and “can’t wait to meet me”. His over-eagerness reminds me a little of Camera Guy and is a little off putting. I just don’t get excited about men I haven’t met yet and am wary when they seem overly excited about me. I don’t trust profiles, email exchanges or even telephone conversations. For me, it’s all about in-person chemistry. It’s about the way I feel when a guy looks me in the eyes. It’s the way I react to the sensation of his touch; if only the innocent feel of his hand on my back as he guides me out of a crowded bar. Notwithstanding the countless folks who have fallen in love on Thoughts prior to meeting, it’s just not the way I roll. I can like a guy I’ve met online and wonder what will happen when we meet in person, but I’m literally not capable of falling in love or even putting genuine stock in a future relationship with someone I’ve never met in person. Maybe I’m a cynic, I don’t know. So, as great as this guy reads on paper, looks in his picture and sounds on the phone, I’m not the slightest bit vested. As flattered as I am by his kind words and eagerness to meet me, our date tomorrow is just another first date which may or may not lead to a second date, which will unlikely (there’s the cynic again) lead to that elusive “feeling” I so badly crave and so rarely experience.
I wish that I would meet someone who excites me; whose presence takes my breath away; whose face remains etched in my mind’s eye when we are apart; whose phone call or email results in my heart beating faster; whose stories result in my eyes dilating in interest; whose brain power impresses me; whose kiss thrills me. It’s happened to me less than a handful of times, yet others seem to experience these emotions much more frequently and with greater ease. When I read the blogs of these people, I get jealous. I do not begrudge others of happiness but, yes, the green-eyed monster surfaces and makes me feel awful. There is so much good in my life right now, yet, it is my handicap when it comes to developing strong feelings for the guys I date which has consumed me of late. I think that’s the real reason I didn’t blog all week. That and the fact that I still haven’t been able to run due to my foot injury. Running releases endorphins I have surely been missing these past two weeks. It sounds silly but I experience an emotional reaction to running withdrawal.
I’ve also been concentrating on my novel which, as present, is 53 pages single spaced. My sister finally finished and said she loved it but was concerned that things were going too smoothly for the protagonist and her love interest and asked if I planned to throw a roadblock into the relationship. I explained that a novel is usually several hundred pages and if I introduced the roadblock on page 50, how would I possibly fill the remaining pages? My plan is to show the progression of the relationship so that my readers, assuming I have any, care about the couple and pull for the heroine when I finally rip the rug out from under her. I submit my first 25 pages (double spaced so really only 16 or so pages) next week for critique on August 4th. I’m nervous already.
That’s it for me. I’m off to the gym in the hope that the elliptical trainer and bike will provide a sufficient substitute for the treadmill! At the very least, I want to burn off the beers I drank last night watching the Yankees beat the Red Sox in what can only be described as another nail biter.
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Posted by Meredith on 2008-07-26 15:12:48 | Rating: | Views: 124
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I noticed! Glad to read you are feeling more cheerful and optimistic. The guys on your roof would put anyone off but you're right - not all men are like that. Really hoping for you that your next date will be a great one. Please don't settle for anything less. Well done with the book. I'm having a real off period and just hoping inspiration flies back in tomorrow.
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Posted by overthehillandfar...
on 2008-07-26 15:53:00
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I just figured you were tormenting us awaiting your sister's reply. Vis a vis the guys on the roof and "fat chicks" - I was once walking along a dock at a yacht club (don't ask!) and I spotted a sailboat called "No Fat Chicks." I was, at first offended on behalf of all fat chicks, until I noticed that the four guys (without girls at all) who were sitting on the deck were short and bald. I'm sorry to say Evil Twin got loose on me for a minute...sometimes she says things I wouldn't...nah, scrap that - I'd have said it too! Have fun on your date!
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Posted by BootLady
on 2008-07-26 19:07:33
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Your date sounds promising. I hope you have some you are feeling better after the gym. I am like you were I don't fall in love easy in my adult life there have been 2 men I have fallen for and 1 maybe, so don't beat yourself up over not falling when someone is right, you will know it. I can't wait to hear about your date! Good luck!
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Posted by prelude2it
on 2008-07-26 21:32:55
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I noticed too!! I'm glad you're back. I tend to agree about needing that "feeling" in the presence of someone. This guy sounds like he could be fun! Anxious to hear how it goes!
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Posted by TheAlreadyJaded
on 2008-07-26 21:40:36
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Would I sound like a stalker if I admitted I'd visited your blog to see whether you had posted since the "Its just not there" one.
I knew alot of guys like those two on your rooftop when I was growing up, which is why I was very careful how much I gave up to guys when I "dated". I did not want to be subject of one of those conversations.
Your book sounds great, keep it up regardless of feedback you get. Which I'm sure will all be constructive if not positive all the way.
As for falling in love with a guy from seeing photo's, reading words, and telephone conversations - I hear you. I want similar to you, I want someone that I will be in awe of, I want to admire him, and be excited to see him. I want his words to mean something to me, not words that will make my eyes roll in my head.
I also want to know alot about them before I am convinced that they are right for me (and my kids).
Oh it is a mine field out there, tread carefully, and don't rush into anything. I know you won't because you are a very smart lady.
Enjoy your date and I hope your foot gets better quickly. :)
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Posted by EasyToSay
on 2008-07-27 03:05:28
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I most certainly noticed! Whenever I dropped by, I took a peek at your page and checked for a new great blog from you, didn't see anything for ages and wondered what's been happening, and wondering where you've gotten to. Well, we all know now!
I'm so relieved you and Colt 45 are going to be friends. At least it was completely fuss free and there were no dramas involved.
I hope your date with the Eager Beaver goes well, I think you should be flattered about his interest! Maybe you'll find the butterflies on that date, but I can understand your cynicism. After a run of bad luck it often just seems like the good luck will never roll around.
Oh, and I rolled my eyes so much at the conversation between those guys you've mentioned. It sounds like a conversation between most of the guys at school that I always have the misfortune of hearing. It annoys me how immaturely some men still think of women, it's so degrading. I hear these conversations at school, and I write on a piece of paper, "are women revenue to them??" and I get several nods in response to those I show. Gawwd I hate it. Soooo much.
Good luck with your novel! I think you're right about not putting any complications in just yet, I'd give it until page, hmm, 75 - 100. My opinion, anyways. :)
Take care, Meri. I hope your foot recovers ok :)
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Posted by Mezlie
on 2008-07-27 06:50:49
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Thanks for catching us up!
Hugs
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Posted by 1221dol0306
on 2008-07-27 09:18:08
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For the twerps on the roof poop on them, I'm sure it would be an improvement.
Meridith you are an awesome woman, please know that:)
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Posted by pitapie50
on 2008-07-27 21:19:23
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Meri:
The boys on the roof were just that, boys.
Men see the inner woman and not the package that the inner woman comes in.
And frankly more boys like that leaves all the really good women for the real men, no matter how old the man is.
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Posted by whiteknight
on 2008-07-28 07:24:55
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I completely understand what you mean when you say you go through emotional withdrawals when you don't run...I used to be a cross country and track runner. Although I smoke now and am nowhere near the shape I was in then, I still go through those withdrawals when I don't do my daily mile after work. I hope your foot heals soon. I also have a foot injury that happened 2 months ago from being drunk and stupid. I continue to run on it despite it still being swollen from the night I hurt it.
Those guys on the rooftop sounded absolutely disgusting. I put guys like that in my "I wouldn't spit on you if you were on fire" category.
Finally, I sympathize with you about the green-eyed monster thing. I get like that too. I absolutely love seeing 2 people kissing, holding hands, just looking completely smitten with one another; on the other hand, I feel a stab of jealousy at the same time, because I think it isn't fair that they get to be together, that they get their fairytale. It's very bittersweet.
By the way, I'm glad you and Colt45 are on the same page with the friendship!
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Posted by nakedtruth
on 2008-07-28 13:15:12
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OMG - I noticed too silly! Good luck on ur date... I'm gonna read ur next blog to find out what happened :)
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Posted by helen1282
on 2008-07-28 13:40:18
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I would have noticed but I wasnt here to let you know I noticed? did you notice?
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Posted by roe
on 2008-07-30 17:05:43
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I most certainly noticed you were not around, Roe. You probably won't check this post again to even see this comment but I wanted to post it anyway!
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Posted by Meredith
on 2008-07-30 17:13:54
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Hey, I noticed that you were gone! You are one of my daily checks...sometimes depending on the workload multiple times a day.
I'm a little behind right now but will get caught up tomorrow...hopefully. :)
Hope you have a good one!
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Posted by Mandie142
on 2008-07-30 17:56:57
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I completely understand wanting someone who'll take your breath away, whose touch will give you butterflies and whose company you'll crave. i've only been in love once and I've been really lucky and blessed that he was the one. But I do feel there is someone for everyone, and there is someone out there who will most certainly make you feel very special and who'll steal your heart :)
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Posted by angelwings
on 2008-07-31 04:31:08
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