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I finally figured out why I'm scared to be in a relationship with my boyfriend... I am completely utterly in love with me and I thinkt hat scares me. I think it scares me not knowing how I will I be later in the future if we ever broke up. I don't want to need him so much because what if he just leaves me and never returns? Not even going back to friends even though tha will be hard but it's better to have that person in your life than not at all at times. I know I can't live without him if he wasn't in my life. He was also theres for me whenever I needed him and whenever I had my mood swings...But I feel like I am needing him way too much where I almost depend on him a lot and at the same time being independent... I don't want to need him so much because I'm scared of falling flat on my ass then having no one to pick me up... I can't even pick up own self at times so what will happen if he disappears? That seriously scares me the most... I don't want to need him so much where I'm afraid to lose him... He can find someone better than me and dump me which I am afraid of... I don't want that to happen even though it might... I am his first girlfriend and so how will I ever know if he will get tired of being with just me? I'm scared as hell... I need him more than anything and that is freaking scary... I've known him for so long and now I just realized that he is a huge part of my life... What do I do? I don't want to need him.... I don't want to fall....
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Posted by MeiHan on 2009-11-03 01:34:07 | Rating: | Views: 14
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