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Restless, Volunteer, Drama
I still can't get any sleep unless I cry myself to sleep which is rare but hey at least I got to sleep the 7hrs I needed for two nights at least >.< Ugh...Don't know why I can't get enough sleep. Boyfriend says its insomia, but I don't know. It's been going on for two weeks so......Read More

Posted on: 2009-03-07 01:23:50 | Rating:

| Views: 28 | Comments: 0 | Tags: sleepy drama volunteer

Depressed More and More
My interview is on March 21st at 1:10pm, but I can't seem to focus on it. My mind keeps wandering aroud. I keep rereading the information booklet they gave us, but I can't get it stuck in my mind. My mind is just thinking of unpleasant thoughts where its starting to make me......Read More

Posted on: 2009-03-16 01:16:29 | Rating:

| Views: 56 | Comments: 2 | Tags: dying cutting myself hate depression

Depressed School Day
This morning at school, I almost broke down and started crying but I didn't. I was able to hold it back enough till the bell rang to go to first period. I was depressed throughout the whole day, but I just kept acting like everything was fine. I listened to my ipod in the......Read More

Posted on: 2009-03-16 17:33:45 | Rating:

| Views: 50 | Comments: 1 | Tags: school sleep crying friends sister

One Step At A Time
I texted my boyfriend earlier today during lunch, telling him I wasn't going to be online for a while and well not talk to him of course. I just need to get my mind out of the gutter right now and sort all these problems out in my head first. I can't do that if I keep thinking about him which......Read More

Posted on: 2009-03-18 01:46:13 | Rating:

| Views: 36 | Comments: 2 | Tags: steps confused

Little Steps
Today wasn't so bad compared to all the other days. In french class, we finished our drawings and my friends made fun of my pudgey cow. Hmph... My pudgey cow is awesome!!! I think they are just jealous because they can't be as awesome as my pudge cow!!! Anyways near the end of......Read More

Posted on: 2009-03-19 00:49:35 | Rating:

| Views: 46 | Comments: 1 | Tags: depressed life

Step Backwards
I took a step backwards today. It was going alright the whole day almost till I signed onto aim. I talked to my boyfriend, thought I was ready, but I wasn't. It just made me doubt the whole relationship even more. Ugh... I'm really confused at what I should do. ......Read More

Posted on: 2009-03-20 01:26:10 | Rating:

| Views: 28 | Comments: 0 | Tags: steps depressed love

Sleepover
I had a sleepover this weekend with friends. They planned it all and I just agreed with whatever we were doing. We watched Monster vs Aliens. We were the only teenagers there, but whatever. We wanted to see the movie and we paid to see it so ya. After the......Read More

Posted on: 2009-03-28 20:11:22 | Rating:

| Views: 33 | Comments: 1 | Tags: friendship sleepover

What Does He Mean?
My stomach is hurting like hell and I'm tired. I didn't get enough sleep last night. Too many things were on my mind. My boyfriend was one of them... He got out of the hospital yesterday since he was mugged and such. Anyways, I kept waking up over and over again......Read More

Posted on: 2009-03-30 10:24:46 | Rating:

| Views: 42 | Comments: 1 | Tags: boyfriend love

Poems
Here are some poems that I wrote yesterday. I didn't feel like posting them yesterday since too many things were going on. Anyways they are how I feel now. Her Music She turns its up. She's losing herself. Her music is her escape. She raises it louder. She's......Read More