I have had a rough week..  Work has been a bugger, boss is PMSing, & ALL of her staff want to hang her!!!  My husband wouldn't leave the house to go out for our anniversary dinner. And my lawn mower shot craps!!!!  OK Let the PITY PARTY begin!!!

Tonight, after a 9 hour day, I came home & started to mow the yard.  It was knee high in some places!!! The lawn mower threw a big piece of metal out the side, & died...  DANG!  So I got the weed eater out & used it to do the front & side yard. Now that may not sound bad, but my yard is over an acre large....

I sat down to take a break & my cell rang.  It was Blue Eyes....  I haven't heard from him in over a week, & the last time we talked, he was very distant.  After we had the usual BS chit chat, I ask him what was really going on..  He told me that because I am married, & we both know that our relationship can't really go anywhere.  He was getting too attached to me. As I was getting the same way about him, we knew we had a problem. We also know that we miss the hell out of each other.

Later this week, I am going to his house, & cook for him. He cooked dinner for me last time. Now its my turn.  He can sing like Dean Martin & there is one of Deans cd's that he really wants & couldn't find.. Hello Ebay!!  I got it for him.  So, I'll cook, we'll do dishes together, then dance.  Slow & romantaic...Just the way he does..  umm.. everything......... sighhhhh..........

There are times I really wish I was single again....  But I have 21 years invested in my husband.  His health is crap, & his mind wanders. I can't & won't leave him. This is the first time I have strayed.  & MAN! I really did a job of it....   Yep! Blue Eyes is back!  And, baby, am I glad!!!!

T.A.M

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