I have been with the greatest man!!!  Yes I cheated.  And I FLIPPIN' LOVED IT!!!!  I went to visit Blue eyes last night.  He fixed a great candle lit dinner, we did dishes together.  Dean Martin & Frank Sinatra were singing in the back ground. After dishes, we kept talking. He stood up took my hand & we started to slow dance.  He kissed me & away we went....

Later, we held each other and talked. I haven't felt this alive in YEARS!!! I don't know how far this will go or how long it will last. But I am going to take every second I can & enjoy it. The scary part was, I didn't feel guilty. 

I went home to my husband, helped him with his nightly needs.  Told him I loved him & went to my bed.  I know some of you are going to  think I am terrible person. Maybe I am. But, I don't think so. If My husband could give me any thing, any kind of emotion, I wouldn't go to Blue Eyes.  But he can't. And, Dang it! I'm tired of being lonely.  I'm tired of caring everything on my own.  

T.A.M.

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