Okay, I’m not feeling too good right now. I recently emailed an old friend – someone that I have not talked to in over a year. I felt I had valid points when I emailed her (Tracy) back in December of 2006 with my concerns about our friendship. At the time, she was not living in the area but her family & boyfriend at the time were. Well, she would be in town for the entire weekend & wouldn’t call me until late Sunday to do something. Sunday is the day I spend with the fam & after a weekend, I like to get home at a decent hour on Sundays to wind down & get ready for the week. Maybe that’s wrong, I don’t know. Well, she would become upset because I would never spend time with her. So, I called her on it & she got very angry. My friend, Jill, had read over the email & thought that I got my point across but was not a bitch about it…but, Jill & Tracy didn’t see eye to eye cuz Tracy’s boyfriend (now husband) had dated Jill for several months.

Anywho, so I get a response from my recent email & here it is (I don’t feel like paraphrasing):

“Well I can't say I expected an e-mail from you in my mailbox. Although your e-mail was alittle odd I got the point. I seem to remember your last e-mail was regarding you feeling neglected that I didn't spend time with you when I was home. Granted I'm near town now but I have a lot of different responsilblities now. You know how much time a dog takes, well I have two now. How is Casey by the way? Don't get me wrong, if we are both at a bar I'm not going to walk past you like I don't know you or talk shit about you. I don't even mind coming over to watch a movie or going out to dinner with a group of us. I'm just saying really think if you want me back in your life. If you invite me to do something I may have to say no, and I don't want you to get mad or feel neglected about it. It's just I have stuff I have to get done, it may be as stupid as grocery shopping or laundray but I have to do it. And yes I may complain about Jim sometimes but that doesn't mean I don't love him. He is my husband and everynight I go home to him and our dogs, that's the life I choose. Like I said before if you ask me to do something and I say no, it's NOTHING against you it's just I have things to do. I guess I just want to make sure things are ok so we dont' have to go through the same bullshit again! So really think about it, are you are ok with me sometimes saying no?”

Ah, that wasn’t the original complaint that I had, it was just that it was always last minute that she wanted to do something & she would get upset when I didn’t want to go out on a Sunday night. I want to fix things – basically cuz things are not going well with Melissa & Jill – but I don’t know how to respond to this.

Well, now it’s time for me to venture off & do garbages here at work. Yippee. & the afternoon was going so well – I had the Corey Hart chat up, Rhino is wearing his wife’s daisy socks (so I think that I’m changing his name from Rhino to Daisy on these blogs), etc. It was just a nice afternoon until this email popped up in my inbox.

If there were many errors in this post, I apologize, don’t have time to proofread.