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I left to go to work this morning and decided to run by the mailbox. I don't check it that often cause I don't get much. I haven't told the bill collectors where I moved yet!! hehehe. Well I opened it and to my suprise it's bustin with stuff. Which I guess isn't too bad since I haven't checked it in about 2 weeks or so. Well I start rifling through everything...junk, junk, junk, wedding invitation, bill, 3 letters from the ex in jail. Hmmm, that's obnoxious.

Guys lemme ask you a question. If you were attempting, no matter how sad the attempt is, to win your ex back after you had basically ripped her heart out, showed it to her then threw it out and she didnt' show an interest...would you still pursue? See here's the thing. While yes, I admit, I did go see him a couple of times, I told him to his face that I wouldn't continue. I mailed him one letter and then that was the end of that. Now he's been there for 90 days. The last time I saw him was before my grandfather died which was February 13th. I haven't seen him, talked to him, or written him since. Yet he still continues. Every letter says the same thing. Why don't I write him back, I need to write him back. I'm quite frankly sick of his letters. He wants to make me feel bad for not writing him. I got news for him, I'm not going.

Wouldn't most people have gotten the hint about a month ago? I mean I sure as hell would have. I was going to write him back this morning however apparently he's being released on the 8th so I'm not sure it would get there in time. So I guess this means once he gets out and graces the outside world with his presence I will add another stalker to the running tally.

I think I need to leave Knoxville for a while!!

I'm so tired of hearing excuses out of people. It's so much simpler to just accept the fact that you fucked up then blowing out excuses as to how it's not your fault. Kaylie's father does that shit. Nothings his fault it's always someone elses. I know way to damn many people like that. They wont except repercussions for their actions because it is somehow someone elses fault. That's bullshit plain and simple. I'm sorry but when I fuck up, I have no problem admitting to it, and normally it's before someone else calls me out on it, I'll own up to my mistakes...I guess that's what make me different.

I'm just very annoyed today. I've been reading through blogs and it just seems like anymore people just want to sit and bitch about what other people blog about. Hell I'm guilty of it to, but I said my piece and I got the fuck over it, I suggest everyone else do the same thing. Act like the adults you are, not a bunch of middleschool students. In other words put your bi girl panties on and fucking deal with it.

Enough of my rant....

Last night I was thinking about a blog that someone had written regarding deal breakers and how the quest for the "perfect" man is pointless. How there is no "perfect" man by societies standards but how there's people perfect for you. Well a song came to mind. Now Mandie has her quotes that she does everyday and I love them, but I only can figure out which movie a couple of them came from.....I thought about doing a song a day but I dunno...anyways, this song that came to mind has the same basis of that blog. And while I can't tell you what I'm looking for I can tell you that I'll know it when I find it..

And I - Ciara

I don't need me a basketball player
All I need is somebody that's down for me
and he dont have to have money
His love is just like honey
It's so sweet to me
He can have everything in this world
But he'll sacrifice it all for me
And I made up my mind
I'm in love this time
And it feels so real

And I
Know that he wont break my heart
And I
Know that we wont ever part
It's time, time for us to settle down
And I
want to be with him forever

They can say that I'm crazy
For makin him my baby
But that's how it's gon be
See I done been through many changes
But this one I ain't changing
It's gon' stay the same
I can have everything in this world
But I'll sacrifice it all for him
And I made up my mind
I'm in love this time
And it feels so real

I love you
And all of the things that you do
Oh baby please
I need you
So believe me
I do
Cause I love you
And everything lil thing baby
No No
They don't know how I feel
Cause I know this is real

Okay so there's my song and basically my feelings on it. I'm so glad it's Friday. I have the memory walk for Alzheimer's tomorrow. A special cause to me since I lost one of my grandmothers to comlpications from it. It's an awful heart-wrenching disease that affects everyone around.

Have a great day, may it go by quickly!!