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Today was my follow up after surgery. I had a minor break-down last night. I guess I was more down than I had thought. It all just kinda piled up on me. I got really depressed and it all just kinda hit the fan last night. I just started crying. I was so tired of just going to work, PT, then back home. I've done nothing but sit in my apartment for 2 weeks and I'm over it. I can't even wash my own clothes. I had to ask someone to come over and help me.
You wouldn't understand unless you're put in the exact situation. I'm a dependant person. I don't like relying on anyone for anything. Especially since the only person you can truly rely on is yourself. All of the sudden I had to rely on my mom to take me back and forth to work, physical therapy, church, wherever. I couldn't even go grocery shopping by myself. Hell I can't get out and just walk around the mall cause I can't hobble that far. Regardless, it all really got to me last night. I was over just sitting in my apartment.
Like I said today was my follow-up. I had physical therapy last night and all was well. My doc was quite impressed with how well I'm doing. I've gotten down to one crutch. I'm hoping to be rid of it next week. I hate crutches...aside from doubling as a weapon, they have no real purpose for me.
Anyways, he released me to drive. Thank God! I swear if I had to be driven around any longer I would go insane!! There's the 1 and only good note for the day.
So I came in a little late on account of my appointment, and I have done nothing but catch shit since I've been here. I've only been here for an hour and already have been yelled at 3 times. Basically I can do nothing right by these people. I'm not doing good according to them, and I'm a fuck up. Well shit I'm doing everything I can. The rules change everyday, so when we come in in the morning we have to keep changing what we're doing. I can't do any better than my best and that's what I've been doing. The charge nurse is convinced I don't give a shit and will just fuck up the surgery schedule for shits and giggles.
Right now, I'm seriously contemplating turning in my notice and going somewhere else. Everytime I think I'm doing a decent job someone comes in here and yells at me for something different. I'm actually trying to fight back tears.
Maybe I should just quit, let me knee get better, then look for another job. I can't handle much more of this today. They're probably going to end up firing me or something. This is all I needed on top of everything last night. I'm really not emotionally stable right now to deal with it. My bass even told me that when there's something wrong on the schedule they're automatically going to blame me. Good to know....so why in the hell am I still here?
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Posted by Mamacita925 on 2008-04-01 10:10:00 | Rating: | Views: 86
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I'm sorry kiddo...I know I don't know you,makes me sad.I'm sorry your having a bad day.Darn jerks anyway...I have a Louisville slugger that needs a work out,sounds like some of your co workers need to meet my baseball bat.I do hope the rest of your day goes better and your recovery from surgery as well :)Take care :)
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Posted by pitapie50
on 2008-04-01 11:10:16
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The slugger would be great....I could really use it now!!! Thx
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Posted by Mamacita925
on 2008-04-01 11:16:07
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They totally suck. I'm sorry they are being assholes to you. Need me to come up there and kick some butt? I will ya know?
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Posted by Whitters
on 2008-04-01 11:40:33
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I'm with Whitters, I'll totally come over there & beat some bitches down for ya. However, can I use your crutches...that just sounds like a good time. :)
Well, I hope your day gets better! *Hugs*
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Posted by Mandie142
on 2008-04-01 11:58:11
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I wish it was something HR could deal with. I swear everyting is my fault, even if I was off when it was scheduled. Bitches all of them.
Whit, Mandie -- I'm takin you all up on your offer. Of course you can use my crutches!
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Posted by Mamacita925
on 2008-04-01 12:43:48
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Whoopla!!!!!!! more crutch voilence can I watch lol.
PS Sorry for you bad day, it sucks when that happens. I have those days often.
Hope things get better for you soon.
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Posted by KP
on 2008-04-01 22:14:28
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Whoopla!!!!!!! more crutch voilence can I watch lol.
PS Sorry for you bad day, it sucks when that happens. I have those days often.
Hope things get better for you soon.
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Posted by KP
on 2008-04-01 22:15:02
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I'm sorry you had a bad day. Could you change departments or something? I hope things get better.
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Posted by prelude2it
on 2008-04-01 23:22:10
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I am sorry to hear about all the trouble, just take your time make sure what you got going on is 100% correct, then when they come to you with some BS you can knock em out of the park. Keep your chin up and never let them see that they got under your skin!! Just smile and say why thank you for all your support and helpful pep talks, you have no idea how refreshing it is to work with and for people just like your selves. It does my heart good comming ot work each day. I bet that will piss em off more than anything else in the world lol
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Posted by DouglasMB
on 2008-04-02 08:03:48
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