yupp still here.. goin' through my days like everythings normal and nothings ever gonna change.. which it probably won't. Does anyone know if its possible to escape your own life and just start completely over?.. I don't mean just movin' away n meetin new ppl.. like creating a whole new self. I would love love love.. to do just that. Escape myself and be someone that everybody wants to be around and people would miss if I was gone.. in my case at the moment.. I highly doubt that that would happen. Honestly i think if i just fell off the face of the earth randomly.. there would be very few people that would actually give half a shit other than family.. which actually right now I kinda wonder if they would even care either. I would really love someones input on this situation also.. the last two relationships i've been in.. I got dumped for the exact same girl.. It's crazy listen to this.. the first one cheated on me and then dumped me then I found out after we broke up that he cheated on me with this girl. I eventually got over it and moved on. I started dating someone else that just happened to be my first ex's friend.. I thought everything was going just great.. til one day we were at his house and he told me he thought we should take a break.. which eventually led to a break up. I later found out that he actually dumped me so he could go date someone else... the same girl that I got cheated on with in my first relationship.. is that crazy or am I just imagining it?.. not that I care if they are dating or not.. of course i'm hurt over it.. but I just find it weird that I got dumped twice for the same girl.. hmm..

by the way people.. i'm sorry that you have to read my blog about me bitching about relationships and random shit.. but ya know... i've gotta get it out somehow.