On the average morning, I spend fifteen to twenty minutes walking from where I park my car to University. Occasionally I meet up with a friend on the way, but for the most part I walk alone, and I find that I can be surprisingly reflective. It calms me to a certain extent, allowing my mind to have a chance to prepare for the rest of the day rather than allowing an abyss of rogue thoughts to float around in my head all day, notably affecting my ability to concentrate.

This particular morning my thoughts concentrated on last night. My partner and I are having some problems which seem to have come from nowhere in particular, and last night I heard that I was selfish, immature, arrogant, and condescending along with apparently not knowing how to ask a question without answering it in the same breath, and not knowing how to listen. Now,  I am a very reflective person naturally; I will listen to every word someone says to me and go over it over and over again, and am often too analytical. So I have naturally given this a lot of thought, and come to the conclusion that the person I believed I was is not the person who comes across to others. In my mind I am a caring, generous person. I will inconvenience myself no end to help someone out, and I always put what others want to do or how they feel before myself, however somehow that must come across selfish. I am confused though. I am honestly trying as hard as I can to be what everyone wants me to be yet I am not achieving that with anyone, in any area. I feel a bit useless right now. I am ok at little bits of everything but not good enough at anything so as not to cause problems. I need to change, but don't know how. I feel I am all I can be but if that is not enough, then I am obviously not :S