I wonder why every time things seem to be getting back to normal, something else happens? Just the other day she and I were talking about looking at houses, going on holiday, marriage even, and I thought for once she was actually being serious. We spoke about things we were going to do in the summer and next year, and even when I finish University. I thought we were finally getting some level of normality back.

Then yesterday, she said she wants to finish it - well, she wants 'a break', which basically means I leave and let her do whatever the Hell she feels like until she decides she wants me back at home, which in her case will involve a lot of drinking, and a lot of shagging - which in my mind is cheating whether we're on a break or not (god I sound like Rachel from Friends).

I know that if I leave I will never go back, but I know even more that I don't want to leave at all. I don't really know what to do....