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My partner and I seem so distant with eachother recently, and I am beginning to think more and more now that it is all my fault. I am so insecure thinking that I'm not good enough for her and that she's going to leave that I push her away. I seem to start arguments when really, there's no need to argue. I think I take things the wrong way, she said last night she doesn't understand why I have pictures of myself on my computer, that she doesn't understand why anyone would take pictures of themselves. And then she mentioned that I've changed how I dress at Uni, that I change a few times in the mornings before deciding what to wear, and wear things like black trousers and tops instead of jeans and a hoody. Personally, I just want to feel like I look ok so I'm not self conscious and get a bit of confidence. I could have just said this, but I didn't, and it lead to an argument with her accusing me of wanting to look 'sexy' for someone at Uni, which is just not true as there's no one there that I like in that way at all. And even if there was, I love her and would never hurt her like that. I am so frustrated that things are like this, I want to be able to accept the fact that there will be some things she doesn't understand and however ridiculious it might seem to me that she doesn't understand it, I need to realise that that doesn't mean she doesn't have the right not to understand and want an explanation. I'm such a crap girlfriend :(
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Posted by Louise2008 on 2008-04-19 03:48:03 | Rating: | Views: 54
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