So I am just sitting here. Doing nothing, but thinking way too much...my down fall. And then I got to thinking. So many people have a journal or a blog or some way that they share their feelings or something with the world. We write on the web and share our deepest and darkest secrets and emotions with complete strangers, but do we share these feelings and thoughts with those we consider the important people in our lives? I'm sure there's a lot of us that don't. I'm not sure why people can tell strangers the truth that they can't tell those they love or care about, but my reason? It's simple. I'm afraid. I'm afraid of the way they will look at me or the way they will think of me. And I know if they are true friends or if they really love you then it won't matter, but you think in your head that you are so screwed up that no one can understand where you are coming from or how you feel. And how can these people help you? Can they help you at all?

I have all these thoughts and no one to share them with. And as I think how I can't share my thoughts or feelings with anyone because I'm scared, I then wonder what else I'm holding back because of my fears.

T.B.C....