We all have those days. The days that we don't think we will get through. Those days when everything seems to be going wrong...or everything is going wrong...those days you just don't want to deal with.

I'm having one of those days. The thing is...nothing is going wrong in my life...just my emotions. I am so screwed up and I hate it. I just want to take my daughter and leave and start over somewhere else. I feel like nothing is keeping me here. The man I love is here...but that isn't motivation to keep me here. My mom and brothers are here...still no motivation. I feel as if I can make it without them. Or maybe I need to see if I can. I don't know. I don't know what's wrong with me right now. I just don't feel right. I'm having one of those "I want to go home" kind of days. Because here I am again at home and I feel so lost. I feel like I don't belong here. I just want to go home. I want to feel safe again. I want to feel loved. I want to belong. I want to be happy. I know I'm asking for a lot, but that's what I need. I fucking need it. I just feel like screaming or crying or something. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Just fuck. Fuck everything. I'm so over this.