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Hmmm.....
Well...do you ever feel like you've made a really great friend....then they just disappear....
It sucks. I chatted with this guy....we talked for a quite a while....shared some stuff....*poof*
He's still around....but won't talk to me.
I don't know why....maybe I offended him. hope not. i didn't mean to. he was really interesting...I was enjoying talkin to him so much!
I do this to myself alot! I find a friend then get all weird about it becuase I think they are too good for me. hmmm.....example....*thinking*....ah-ha! okay...ya know when you're like 10 years old and your older sibling has a friend.....say....16....they talk to you and play with you! And you feel like they are different and you'e found a friend you can really look up to.......then one day it's like.....you've never met?? I sometimes feel that way about all my friends....thinking: "Am I cool enough?" "Am I pretty enough?" recently, of course "Is it because I'm pregnant" "Am I not that fun to hang out with?" just general worries I guess. insecurities maybe?
I guess that's what's goin on with this guy. I don't like him in a relationship way at all. His heart belongs to someone else....and mine I think has found someone too! (*crosses fingers*) but anyways....I really enjoyed our talk....I love the way he thinks and writes. but....he just disappeared and have't heard from him since. So what did I do wrong? if anything? *shrugs*
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