i TRUELY UNDERSTAND WHAT YOUR GOING THRU, TAKE A LOOK AT MY BLOG CANCERPATIENT/DIVORCE AND YOU'LL UNDERSTAND MY SYMPATHY FOR YOU, DEPRESSION IS A TOTAL DEFEAT OF ALL THE STRENGH WITH IN ME. i HAVE TRIED UMPTEEN MEDS NOTHING WORKS, THEY SAY HEALING MUST COME FROM WITHIN, KNOW THAT gOD LOVES YOU AND HE LISTENS JUST TALK LIKE YOU WOULD A FRIEND AND MAYBE SOME LIGHT WILL SHINE UPON YOU. dEBBIE

To have no purpose. To not matter to anyone. I am always at war... if not with others than with myself. A long time ago one of the most painful things I ever had to do was accept the fact that I did not matter, that I was a burden, and ultimately unnecessary.

In all the world there is no one who needs me. I am unnecessary. When there is no one who sees you or recognizes you then it is as if you do not exist. To merely exist.... that is when despair can strike one the easiest... how unfortunate.

While I appreciate the sentiment could you ever truly understand someone as utterly worthless as I am? They say I have promise, talent, natural skill... yet they can't see that to acquire such things I needed to destroy myself first. Yet as I said... in my first blog (powerless) it will not matter who I excel beyond or surpass... I shall forever be powerless.

I'm not religious. I cannot just stand idley by and believe in such a God... nor any for that matter. As I said... I appreciate the sentiment... I truly do. Though you do not know me... this act is a testament to a compassion towards humanity. I remain unnecessary.

you are NOT pathetic. Here is a good motto: Don't worry, be happy!:)

I know what its like to have Depreression. It sucks. I wrote a blog about Depression and Anxiety. You should read it.

Tell me Nicki... what makes you so positive I am not pathetic? I appreciate how you all are trying to help but you don't have to bother with someone like me...

Still... thank you all...

Heh thanks BunnieMarie. I'm actually not as oppose to the words of others as it may appear.... I just become even more analytical and critical when I do feel it so blanket statements with no backing will get shot down by me normally. It's not out of disrespect, anger, or anything of the like.... just how I sort of become.

Thanks everyone for your support. I'm actually doing okay for the moment. Also if anyone needs to talk about their issues I'm always ready to listen.