I could give the usual answers and they would be true, because she's beautiful, because her smile, the way she moves, the skip of heart every time she laughs. Those sapphire rimmed emerald eyes, Oh God when she wears purple eye-shadow, if I had to choose how to die I think drowning in those would make dieing worth while. There are plenty of good looking women out there though.
Forever I could go on about the things I see in her spirit and heart, Her happiness or sadness, the pains and pleasures, the depths, strengths, weaknesses and none of it really hidden. The sharp and searching mind that always leaves me thinking (there we get close to the reason) and is rarely willing to let me get away with trying to back out of a incomplete answer.
These are all things that you can take a hold of, things that can be taken from another. These are the things No One should Ever go into a relationship for, people Always change and we should want to let them, if we hold onto such things we only stop them from being who they want to be. We grab on and go “This is you!” “This is what I fell for” and try to keep them in that place, as 'that' person. Whats worse is if they love you they will try to remain that person, going against being who they are, being their best, and ultimately despise you for it.
The 'thing' that gets me about Her every time, that I've never experienced before is me at my best. Yup I am being totally 'Self' centered, not in a selfish, arrogant or greedy way, just knowing Her makes me more than I have ever been before. All the lost and forgotten things and dreams are right there now. I find instead of despising myself, though I am still rather self-deprecating but that is just force of habit, I recognize the things in myself I dislike and actually have the Will to change them. Not For Her, truly for my self, she just for what ever reasons allows me to see them, to Be More. I can't think of anything greater then someone who allows you too see and (hopefully) reach your potential, or your best self, not by doing or saying anything, just by being.
Posted by Long on 2008-04-16 05:50:30 | Rating: n/a | Views: 75
WOW...ok so that answers my question.
I liked the second line of this post the best :P hehe..kidding..you know im self obssessed..
Ok, moving on to more serious stuff...
Since you see her as a reason to improve for the better, do that. But honestly Long, dont go into a relationship without fully knowing your own worth. Dont look for the other person to complete you. She might, but you still need to be a complete whole before you take that step. Do that right now, while she is the reason. Do that for yourself, then once you've got there...you'll see how much easier it gets. I know what its like to be with a self-deprecating person, and trust me its not pretty. It takes a lot to go on with it and not break. So do that for yourself, do it for the person you love. Realise your own worth first...
My opinion...I may be wrong, but this is what i feel..
Oh AND yay!! Im first to comment ;) Hehe...i think everyone on thoughts is going to start hating me for this :P
hmm. it seems i have been beaten! i will have to settle for second comment! oh well, you win some, you lose some...
moving right along. have i mentioned that i really like your writing style? very honest. and yet, quite cryptic. like an entangled web of thoughts, that still seems to make all the sense.
i read in your previous blog that ur heart's notion of perfect falls short compared to her. i've recently been there myself.
and your last para makes all the sense in the world to me. i know its not something u change urself for. i understand that its just the way she makes u want to be. i've come up with this phrase as of late - "she sees in me the man i always wanted to be"
just through her eyes, you are a better person. and that really does make u one. y not take that inspiration then and be the best u can?
Ya got to be quick around here if You wanna be a pro "First Post !!!11one!11eleven!!11!" troll poster.
I just wish I didn't, not with someone who's seeing some one else. Oh well we can't really control how we feel jsut what we do about it, thankfully I haven't done anything stupid.
