I fear that my heart is growing for you with every passing day.

I know not how to tell you that I care for you without messing everything up.

We live together..... true.... but as friends and not as lovers.

We live together...true....but as roomates, not as those whom are to wed.

We enjoy each others company.

And I feel as though you flirt with me in your own inconspicuous ways,

But I fear betrayals 

I fear scorn.

For you are in love with a girl who is my friend, and my dear of heart as well.

I have wrapped my arms around you just once and have found myself not wanting to let go.

We have played...

oh how we have played.

I do things for you that a wife would do for her husband

And you do things for me that are nearing the same.

Sometimes i catch you looking at me and I do nothing more then smile...

and sometimes when you see me I can't help and feel as though you light up a little...

(or maybe thats just me) 

....even more so when you say "Hey You".

My heart aches within me for not knowing what to do.

I don't want to hurt anyone.

I don't want to have to move.

I am not perfect in any shape or way, but lets face it neither are you!

I care about you so deeply and long for my lips to touch yours,

but not just that,

for much more.

I want to live with you forever it seems

bare your children and raise them together with love and understanding

(so unlike what we recieved as children.)

My heart aches for you but you seem to love another, 

My friend,

my dear heart,

a wonderful young lady with high aspiring dreams.

Where i am too afraid to embark upon mine.

Too afraid to live and let my voice be heard.

Too afraid to speak the truths to people,

too afraid to live,

and too afraid to die.

Trapped in this void between happiness and utter destruction of my own soul.

Tell me what to do....

Tell me what to think....

Tell me what to say so that we will be together forever,

tell me what it is that you long for.

Tell me what it is that you need,

for i want nothing more then your happiness....

(so maybe thats why i say nothing),

thats why i say nothing....

thats why i let you live your life.

Right beside mine.

Watching you from acrost the room.....

and waiting for your smile.