Six years in a relationship is a long time, six precious years of my life with a man who left me with the blink of an eye. Six years of extreme emotions, compromises that I endured, effort and energy that I put in, all wasted over a man who proposed and said he loved me but in the end walked out saying he was seeing someone else and never to call him again. What did I do to appease him? What did I do that made him change his mind? When I questioned him his abrupt ending of our relationship he simply said I had forgotten what he said that he was seeing someone else and asked me ‘What’s hard to understand?’
Can somebody explain me how he could ever think it would be easy to understand? It’s not like we were in our teens that it was those growing years and crush/infatuation sort of a thing, we both currently in our late twenties going on 30. He proposed, said he loved me and missed me, he made promises, talked about having a family with me and then just one day on msn while chatting said not to call him anymore he is seeing someone. I am as confused as anything it’s like what did I do so wrong at least have the decency to tell me. I called him up several times emailed him but he rejected all my calls, ignored my emails and till now completely avoiding me like as though I never existed, like he never said he loved me or made any promises. To make it worse I am miles away from him in a different country there is no way I can just knock on his door demanding an explanation I used to be in the same city  close to to him but now its an entirely different country. He accuses me of forgetting what he last said about seeing someone, but in fact he is the one who forgot everything he said prior to the last thing on msn. It’s like was I dreaming when he proposed or was it playing some sick joke on me he played with my mind, my feelings, my emotions. Doesn’t he realize what he has done to me, he hurt me bad. Emotional pain hurts more than physical pain, the latter heals with time where as the former leaves a permanent emotional scar that may never heal. There are no meds for the emotional pain, the memories of the time you spent together and the feeling of broken promises makes me feel like running away from everyone and everything. I am depressed, sad and lonely. He was my pal, my buddy not just my lover, I shared everything with him and now I feel like I am so lost without him, I miss him and I love him more than he knows I just hope he would call me or talk to me at least tell me what I did so wrong for every problem there is a solution at least tell me the problem so we can find a solution it makes no sense to just end everything so unexpectedly and abruptly. We didn’t have a fight, no quarrel, no argument he came online like usual and to my Hi he replied not to call him again! Its’ tough to grasp it he was always there for me, whenever I needed him he was there we both were such close pals, like a married couple there was so much we shared but now all forgotten by him like I was never in his life. Why do guys do such stuff? i used to hear from my friends but i was so sure about my relationship he would constantly say i dont have to feel insecure about us and then bang he shot me down!! I wish he calls me, i want him to know how badly i hurt but he is gone i never imagined he will leave me.