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Tell me I am alone, and will be forever.
Not a truely understanding soul in the bunch..
Kick me so I collapse on myself,
Never had some much inner support.
- Me.
I find myself favoring this poem a little more with every day. It speaks for itself, and it describes my life at this point in time perfectly
My roommate is listening to Spice Girls....
So let me tell you what I really, really want.
A fair shake.
I was recruited for College Softball at a very good school. I was also interested in their basketball program, so I tried out and succeeded in walking onto the team.
I tried out because I thought College Basketball would be different from the experiance that I had from Highschool. (It wasn't pretty.)
But I have now found, that I am wrong.
It seems no matter how hard I try, I'm still second best.
I can't get a 1-up on any part of this game because of politics.
Throw me a bone, please!?
My father says it's because of the fact that I did walk on to the team. and I wasn't recruited for basketball.
Maybe they don't think my hearts in it, or the coaches might think that people or players would get mad if they I played over girls who actually had scholarships.
This is what I think; Get the fuck over it.
You play to win, so you play the best. Done.
Like this weekend, we played against a shitty team, and I had alot of minutes in the first half. Then we were up, and he removed me.
Slowly we started to lose our lead.
Ok, I'm not saying the decline is because of my elimination from the line-up, but I was the ONLY forward that only had 1 foul. The other three girls in my position had 3 and 4, and he still kept putting them in.
I did not mess up, I did not give attitude.
I have been told, even by these coaches, that I am very respectful and coachable.
So, I sat alot of the second half.
I did go in for a little bit.
But we ended up losing by 5- and I did NOT end the game.
What the hell...
It wouldn't even bother me if the girls that played over me were so much better than I, but they're not.
I really don't understand why all the basketball coaches have been worried about what other people think.
Be a coach.
Plus, with 6 a.m practices /every/ day, as well as evening ones, along with weights,film, and everything else that kills any social life that I would like to have, it's not so enjoyable to be watching all that hard work be lost
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Posted by Let_Me_Speak on 2008-01-13 23:32:31 | Rating: | Views: 37
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