Im sitting in the dark, wondering where to go from here. I can not stop thinking about you. I see your picture when i close my eyes, when i fall asleep and when I wake up. Cant you just open your eyes and see that I'm right in front of you?! And dont just give a fuck? I want to feel your body next to mine, and just hearing your whisper saying that you love me.

Im tired of this game that we're playing. You know who I am, and I know you. And YES, I also know that we can never be together. I know. It hurts my heart and my soul, but I know. Its just so god damn hard to accept it. Maybe I dont wanna accept it. No, I dont. Or.. Yes, I do. NO! I dont want to, but I have to. Fuck, I hate this. I HATE ALL OF THIS.

You're the one I want. THE ONE. But I cant have you.Never-ever. I'm not in love. I think. Maybe just obsessed. I dont really know, and it is ruining my head. Seriously ruining it. Im going crazy. Cant somebody please help me? I dont know what to do anymore...