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What makes you think your happiness is more important than someone's life?

You purposefully let go of family to pursue a "start-over" feeling you didn't have anything to lose.

You set about parasitically settling into a new family who will support you so you don't have to work.

You will use her up, suck her dry, be left with an empty shell of a person to control. And your son will watch you do this and learn. Something anyway. Either how to do it, or how to completely fail at being a husband and father.

And you think you're winning? Not having a conscience doesn't make you win.

I have no idea why I miss you. It's sick, really, you never gave me anything pure, it was all tainted, only promises of being true, loving, protective, adoring. "Don't you see how well I treat you?" while you're actually poisoning me into believing you're right. But you didn't know my God was going to pull me out before you killed what was left of my mind. You didn't know so many people were praying for me and you didn't know that I'D BELIEVE GOD OVER WHAT YOU SAID TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm struck down but not destroyed. I don't want to see you fall for falling's sake, but I want to see you cry out to God to save you, to ask forgiveness, to make it right. I may never see that.

So, today my chest hurts, and I can't catch my breath and I can barely move. But the difference is that I know it won't always be this way. It's only been 5 months. I will heal more, and I'll see the truth from lies more. And I guess I will be the one to teach our son how to be a good father, as best I can.

And you, the parasite ridden girl, you'll find out what you did wasn't worth it. Unfortunately you'll have to deal with the shame of being part of satan's plan for my son & my life. That is, if you ever know the living God again. Because who you believe in is Lies.