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My eyes are so very dry. I can't hardly keep them open. If I put in moisture drops, then it's hard to see. I am fighting sleep. I don't know why. I've been told that people with a terminal disease do that because they don't want to sleep away any precious time. That's logical. The tired I feel is different from any other tired. My body just shuts down. It wants to sleep. Actually, I don't feel all that bad. I just need about 12 more hours of uninterrupted sleep. My body is so tired. The bottoms of my feet ache and toes are numb. This is normal. I'm a little short or breath. I have learned over time to take extra oxycodone on chemo days. It keep the pain, physical and mental tolerable. I think my 12 year old likes Thursday afternoons. She usually brings home her neighbor friend when they get off the school bus. Today they ate $8 worth of grapes and played guitar hero all afternoon. She had bball practice and a neighbor took her and brought her for me. I wouldn't drive after chemo unless there was no other option. We had frozen french bread pizza for dinner. She was happy.
My brother, who I rarely get to see, took me to Duke today. He's 5 years younger than me. He's a book full of stories. He has done so many interesting things in his life. I laughed and laughed. On the way home we stopped to see his new colt. I didn't really feel like it, but glad we did
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The husband called a few hours after I got home. We continue to have nothing to say to each other. My family, friends, daughters and ME have had to take on his part while he has been away and it has been hard...The extra money has made it bareable but would certainly rather have had him home. There's nothing much left at TJ Maxx that I need. He most always says "I love you" before we hang up. I most always say it back. Sometimes absence does not make the heart grow fonder.
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Posted by Lambchop on 2008-01-25 03:02:57 | Rating: | Views: 45
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i like how you talk about your daughter. :o)
sorry to hear u & ur husband are not doing so well & that ur sick. is the chemo helping at all?
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Posted by foxx_flie
on 2008-01-25 14:12:57
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