So I feel like im making progress with your friends. I know they dont know your gay,(your still scared to tell them) but i know for a fact they know im gay. Jenna even said something to me about it the other day. But heres the thing i dont think they really care and i totaly think there catching on to me and the fact im in love with you! But like i said i dont think they really care. I think at first they didnt know what to think but now that they have gotten to know me as a person they like me and can see past they fact im gay. (Sounds stupid huh? but some people are still ignorant) I just wish you could stop being scared about who you are as a person....i know for a fact you'll feel better once you start telling people and stop hiding who you really are!

Anywho my birthday party is this saturday April 12 and max capacity is 62 people, i want to meet and beat max capacity!!! Which i did talk to the owner (pete) and he said he'll allow 80 people, 62 regualrs and 18 VIP, which i do have the list made up for the VIP so for sure there in. I would really like to show your friends exactully who I am and exactully who i know!!! And i would like to show them that just because im gay doent mean that im not a good decent person whos liked if not loved by numerous people. So I've pulled out all the stops like i usually do, Im trying to pull a P. Diddy and throw the infamous white party......I made 100 invites which do specify that u need to be wearing some form of white (i wont be as strict as P. Diddy and not let people in but you do have to have some kind of white on) and passed them ALL out, I have drink tickets for mixed drinks only cant use them for beer, I have the VIP section of the bar just to myself and my best friends, through out the night i'll be haveing people pass out glow sticks (I have 3 different kinds), letting beach balls out in the crow, and tons of other party favors just to name a few, im paying someone to come in before hand and decorate. All my friends think im crazy and spending way to much money but its MY BIRTHDAY and i want everyone to have a good time, i want everyone to be like damm that was a bomb aXX party!!! And i want your friends to relize that gay people are the same as stright people and that they are not freaks and that they are loved and friends with tons of different people, people that they might even be firends with too......beacue weather you want to belive it or not its a small world. So here I go....Wish me luck.....im throwing my version of P. Diddys white party.......and maybe just hopefully I might be able to change some peoples perspectives and just maybe we might be able to be together!!!