My dear girl...I don't know if you are just writing...or if it's serious..so I'll go with what seems more important. You are loved and you don't know it...because you have never been shown it, so it seems... Jumping is not going to guarentee you fly...but if you jump into his Kingdom you will learn how to...in a more poetic way... I have a song for you... I did not know God's kind of love so I have emerced myself with lovesongs so I could imagine what it is to truly be loved by God. You can go to youtube.com and search for Fly, Sarah Groves and listen. If I can figure out how to post it here I will...

Also...I love your poem..reminds me of my dad..with his red shaky eye..so visit my blog..lol.. and see what I mean.

http://terrasbackyard.blogspot.com/2009/08/my-place .html

Thank you..And yes this is something that really happened to me but that was a very long time ago