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I feel absolutely weak, crippled with fear, hurt and rejection.
My man told me today that he no longer wants us to have a relationship, he wants me to move out at the weekend!
Therefore i am then homeless and jobless (i work for him)!
I know sometimes he can be the most horrible person to be around but deep down he has got a good heart!
I have been ill for a really long time and the doctors don't know whats wrong with me! I've been really worried about it, not sleeping at nights, feeling quite down and depressed on top of that he has been really struggling to complete work on time and has been constantly stressed! He anounced a couple of weeks ago that he wished his daughter would hurry up and have the baby so we could go away!
We have been arguing over stupid things, i've been stressed and so has he so it's going to happen! He has slept in the guest bedroom for a few nights.................. with that being painful enough and him not speaking to me for days on end things have just spiralled out of control!
This morning i rang him to speak about some work and he seemed not to bad with me, then when he had finished work he dropped by home and we started arguing again partially because i'm so upset and can't handle him not speaking to me. It makes me worse!
Whilst he popped home he said that he didn't want this anymore and wanted me to leave by the weekend! Im absolutely devestated! Tears from the moment he said it and ever since!
I have tried ringing him left messages on his answering machine sent him texts asking and pleading for him to come back and speak to me! He wont he just keeps saying that he has had enough!
I love him so much, i really don't want this and i don't want to lose him over petty arguements because we are both so tightly wound at the minute!
Ive been ill for ages and needed to be close to someone whilst i'm scared of whats wrong with me and he's been so stressed that he hasn't wanted to be near anyone! It's been a lethal combination for sometime!
I don't want us to give up over some so trivial!!!!
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Posted by LMarie on 2008-04-14 11:11:20 | Rating: | Views: 90
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lmarie
just left u a comment on my last post. please read it. ur profile is private and i cannot email u directly but i want to use me and let me at least listen and maybe what i've gone through will help in some small way. i have made friends on this site that i would rather die than give up. they are the best in the world and they are true. i am blessed in so many ways lately and just a few months ago i was planning my suicide bc i thought that was my only option. i don't know exactly how i got through all the stuff i did with any sanity left but i did. i will be an advocate for battered women and children for the rest of my life and will always have a hand to help someone with. i will never look down on someone unless its to help them up. :)
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Posted by lastblastkl
on 2008-04-14 11:51:54
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Thank you lastblastkl,
Everything you say means so much, i really find it hard to be strong.....
I don't understand whats wrong with me!
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Posted by LMarie
on 2008-04-15 07:55:23
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