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He hit me again!
I was laid in bed crying as i am now. I'm upset about maybe having endometrosis! Since the doctor told me that i probably have it i have been deeply upset!
I have been trying not to show it! I'm really scared about having to go sleep to find out if he is right about what i have. I haven't told anyone other than my man about how i am feeling! 
I told him on  monday that  i have it, not once as he asked any questions about it! An tonight i am laid there crying in bed and because he can hear me sniffling he starts an arguement i retaliate because i can't cope with it.

i now have a black eye!!!

All because i am upset because i am scared about what may be wrong inside of me!!!

I really want my sooo called partner to be there! Why the hell won't he put his arms round me when he sees me crying?
I want to be held!
I want to know that i am loved!
I want to be cared for!
i want to be listened too!
I want to discuss whats on my mind!
So what if there is snot dripping down my face!
So what if my face is scrunched up like a childs!
So what if my body is bent over double and i can hardly speak!
I want someone to care, i want someones arms around me! I want to be held tightly whislt i am crying!

Fair enough some people have said not to worry until the camera shows the truth! But surley i am allowed to be slightly scared!? I don't know how serious my condition is?

I habe a black eye for being upset!!!! Why?
What the fuck did i do?
I really can't cope!!!!

He is snoring in bed whilst i sit at the coimputer being upset!!!!

The bastard!!!
Posted by LMarie on 2008-04-30 18:05:02 | Rating: n/a | Views: 76


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Posted by
NorthernSoul
on 2008-04-30 19:06:52
 
Your post caught my eye. It's upsetting that you are the one who is scared and you get a black eye for getting upset? Are you sure you want to be with this man. With what you may have it could affect your fertility and do you really want to have kids with this man?A computer can not comfort you. Have you both got counselling or has he gone to anger management?
Sorry if your other posts explain this x
 
 

Posted by
anotherdaze
on 2008-05-01 08:09:39
 
I feel for you. I don't want to be preachy but you can't and won't ever be able to fix him. Only he can do that. I know many women deal with this kind of thing all the time but that doesn't make it ok. Value yourself! Endometrosis can be treated so try to relax. Your nerves being shot can cause all kinds of new health problems.
Yes, you have the right to be concerned. Most people get scared when they know they are going to go under anaesthesia.
 
 

Posted by
Bakemono767
on 2008-05-01 10:05:54
 
wow. i wish i could offer you comfort. endometrosis is not really anything to worry about. my mother had it for three years and didnt know it. it isnt life threatining, and its easily solved, so take comfort in the fact that health wise, you will be fine. as for "him". i am sorry. a baseball bat to the head is a wonderful eye opener! :P
 
 

Posted by
LMarie
on 2008-05-01 10:54:33
 
Thank you, i have read up on endometreosis i feel a lot better about it.
Thanks to all your comments
An as for the baseball bat i have one behind the bed.............
xx
 
 

Posted by
jessfreethinkin
on 2008-05-09 14:36:00
 
I WOULD LIKE TO ADD A FEW WORDS HERE FOR YOU IF THAT IS OK. I DONT KNOW WHAT ENDOMETREOSIS IS BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT A BLACK EYE IS. I HAVE BEEN THERE BEFORE AND NOT KNOWING WHY YOU HAVE IT MAKES IT THAT MUCH HARDER. I DELT WITH IT FOR A FEW YEARS AND HAD A CHILD WITH THE JERK. I WILL BE HONEST PEOPLE CAN TELL YOU TO LEAVE HIM DO THIS AND DO THAT BUT THE CHOICE IS YOURS. YOU WILL HAVE TO SEE HIM FOR WHAT HE IS AND KNOW JUST WHO YOU ARE. I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT MADE ME LEAVE MY SONS FATHER BUT I FINALLY DID AND BEFORE MY SON WAS BORN. IT WAS HARD BECAUSE I WANTED MY FAMILY BUT HE DIDNT GIVE A SHIT OR HE WOULD OF NEVER LAID HIS HANDS OR FEET ON ME. MY SON IS 8 NOW AND HAS A DADDY WHO LOVES HIM SO WHO CARES ABOUT THAT OTHER GUY. I HOPE MY SON GROWS TO BE A BETTER MAN. AND TO BE HONEST I KNOW HE WILL BEST OF LUCK TO YOU AND WHATEVER CHOICE YOU MAKE. KEEP YOUR HEAD UP AND BE STRONG.
 
 


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