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I believe i'm having some sort of life crisis.
Why?
Just before Xmas i gave up my job! I came to work for my partner from home! An offer at the time that i thought i couldn't refuse! I didn't really like my job that much so thought it would be the perfect opportunity to find something i wanted to do!
Big mistake i now have no idependance, although on a positive i have decided that i want to go back to college!!!
I also keep wanting to go travelling or just to get away - be single enjoy a different life - have lots of laughs.
All my friends have partners and i'm a bit of a wimp so i couldn't possibly do that on my own! Also the lack of funds is obviously a big issue!!!
I don't know what it is but i regret so much of my life from when i left school - i never went to university after college - another huge mistake!!! I have never been away on holiday with the girls, every chance i've had there has been reasons why i cant mostly down to money!!!
I don't own anything! I don't own a house i just live in my fellas house.
I don't have a car - i can't even drive yet! I am learning and hopefully will soon be taking my driving test!
I feel that so many opportunities have passed me by, i don't want sympathy from anyone because i know that the reason i feel like i do has been down to myself! I should have grabbed everything with both hands and enjoyed them!!!!
I didn't believe that at 25 i would have nothing, i know i have got a roof over my head and an ok bloke, brilliant friends a beautiful dog and a good family. I also have my health so i know i'm better off than some people. I want more fun, laughs, tears, friends i want to see things. I want an ok job that pays ok money so i can stand on my own 2 feet and make decisions for myself!
I don't know if its just me that feels the pressure of wanting and wishing to do more with our lives! I don't know if its just me who gets jealous when they bump into an old friend and they seemed to have lived a little more than what i have! I don't know if it's just me that still wants to have fun and enjoy life because i don't want to be in my 40's wishing and thinking of the what if's!!!
I still feel i cant get up and do these things!!!
What am i waiting for????
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Posted by LMarie on 2008-02-25 07:16:20 | Rating: | Views: 60
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