Ok, so its day 6 that i havent seen my boyfriend, or even heard his voice, he is just to busy, Im not saying that he's ignoring me, but it sure does seem that way, but im definatly not gonna break it off, and if he calls and tells me anything, i swear that i will be soooooo sad, but im still onthe diet for myself and him, should be a great result, my dad says that i have lost a bit of weight, and im looking thinner, I hope so, these days are gonna be so fast, the past week has gone by pretty fast actually, i swear, i go to school, and then go home, make my lunch, and then a few hours later, which go by really fast, I make my diner, and suck on my water between hours, and then work out in my room for a bit of time, take a shower, and then either go to karaoke, or go to sleep, its a fast paste day, and it seems slow, but i cant beleive thats its almost the end of hump day again! I swear, they are right when they say that after high school, life goes by really fast! It kinda rocks for Justin and my case, but also sucks that life is going by fast, and i have only have a certain amount of untold time, so i have to say that I have to get up and go, and make my life, i have a feeling that when he does get back, he will invite me to go live with him, I just know he will, well.... Im guessing, I hate to be so damn far away from him, so from now on, i wont write about him, unless i hear from him.................
Tonight, we might go to karaoke at Bennigans.... might, i dont know, its really up to my mother, but i hope we go to Boomerz tomorrow night, i cant wait to sing some karaoke!! "Call me when your sober", i almost won 2nd place at Bennigans, but i got 3rd place, only because the guy who won 2nd place screamed for himself, and he was the only guy cheering for him, and he won 2nd, i had others.. besides myself cheering for me, oh well, at least i won once!
You know, i walked to the store to get my underage friend some blacks, and for me, a grape philly, for when i just cant take it anymore, LOL And someone honked at me, it was a silver car, and ryan works down the street, and i dont know if it was him or not, but I swear, he has broken my heart to the extent, i used to think about him, and every now and then, I think about him, i really hate his guts, but I still like him, its a weird combination, but i did love him ALOT, and its sad to see him with Donna, but good that he's happy ya know? I dont regret anything that happen, and i dont wish to be with him, because i have strong feelings for Justin, but it knew when i was smaller that i was gonna love someone by the name of Bryan, OR ryan, and i did, his name was ryan, but im not COMPLETELY over him, after all, he stole my heart, but i can go days without thinking about him, then there are days like these, when i do. But I dont cry anymore when i see him, i used to go to karaoke, and he's was there with Donna, and i used to sit there and think, especially when i hear a slow love song when someone sang it, i cried, and tears would go down my face, it was a bad experience, but i dont do that anymore, thankfully, but i think that Justin and I are alot alike, just that he has been through alot, and he has lots of stories, and I cant tell a story back, because my life isnt as good as that, I wish i had those experiences to share, but i dont :[
Oh yea.... i wasnt supposed to talk about him until i hear from him.... darn!! I didnt even realize it >:P
Oh well, i wont write about how much i miss him until i hear from him!
Im kinda hungry, i want to eat me some salad, and my beef patty! I should be drinking some water, thats what i should be doing!! lol
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