You know what sucks! I mean, it doesnt suck to bad, but My man Justin, is a campaign manager in San Deigo, but he likes being in Austin, so every so often, like 2 times a year, he leaves to San Deigo for a few months, we've been seeing each other for about 4 months, and only now his boss decides to call him to go work for a few months, which sucks, i wont be seeing him for a weeks, but when he gets back, he will have lots of money! and will have an apartment when he gets back, i mean, its all good for his benefit, and mine in the long run too, but you know what they say, absence makes the heart grow fonder, I just think fate works in mysterious ways! we have lots in common, and the way he hold each other is soo different form the past relationships, I want to say I love him, but i dont want my heart to be shattered again! but he was there for me in my worst time when i had my mom going nuts! he even told me yesterday, that he isnt gonna be scared off anytime soon, which is good! I can feel chemistry ignite like fireworks on the forth of july! its crazy! but i cant really explain it, is this what you would call love? Because i thought i was in love with ryan, but this guy brings a completely different feeling, and a beter feeling., seriously, i wish i could explain how i felt about this guy.