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So, heres the latest 4-1-1,
Billy, who i had sex with that one saturday, after i seen him the last time that Wednesday, after he took off, as you know, I had some feelings for him, and after about 2 weeks not hearing from him, I gave up, then about a week after i decided to give up, i get that myspace message, saying he's been thinking about me, and that was it, then after I replied that it was sweet, and then i checked my mail again that night, and he actually confessed his love to me, and I am all he ever thinks about, [[my question: Is it possible to fall for someone after that one time having sex????]], but anyways, he's like I am in love with you, and honestly, I have fallen for you, and so we chatted for sometime, and then he was like, Im serious about you, and he wanted a relationship.... this long distance relationship is weird, I mean he calls everyday, like 2 times, or as much as he can, and explains to me that he misses me, and wants me there with him, he has all these plans, that honestly overwhelm me, he has plans to fly me up there with him, is that weird, or what is going on? I honestly dont want to leave Austin, texas, Austin is my home, and I know where to go all around almost all over Austin, including downtown, and if i was to go there, i would be lost, and alone all by myself, and the only time i would go out, and it would take me a while to be familar with everything, and its kinda sad, and Austin has all my memories, and i dont wanna just leave them behind, but he's saying it will take him about 2 years to come back to Austin, that sucks, so im not sure yet, he's really sweet, and i dont want to break it off, i mean he's 34, and I cant say i have feelings for him like i do Justin, and its weird, I DO have SOME feelings for him, but i cant say that I could spend my whole life with him, mabey its the sex, Justin was G-R-E-A-TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT in bed, and Billy, wasnt so hot, and he kept stopping, and I dont think that its all that, but Justin is really cool, i mean he's 27, about to be 28 soon, and he's the one Im going to the marilyn manson concert with this saturday, so you know, I am in some kind of, confusion, I dont want to break Billys heart, because if he's really IN LOVE with me, i dont want to hurt him, but if he should know, and i dont have the balls to say this to him : [
What should i do, besides tell him?!?!?, cuz there is no way i would tell him that, honestly, i can say what i feel exactly, my friend said that I should follow my gut, and not my heart, she said if there is anything thats i dont feel right about, i should break it off, and not go for it, i mean, he looks like Curt Cobain, and that man was my everything, and i wish he was my everything, so now i have a curt cobain look-alike,and I do like him, honestly, i just wanted sex at first, but now,i have a little more feelings for him,
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I'm gonna have to agree with your friend. If you think you guys don't have a future together, you need to end it. Suck it up and tell him the truth. Tell him how you feel about the whole long distance situation and everything else. If you don't tell him, sooner or later he's just gonna find out some other way and that could hurt him more.
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Posted by allykatt9969
on 2008-02-25 15:08:42
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"my question: Is it possible to fall for someone after that one time having sex????"
Answer... a good rule of thumb, don't have sex with someone, unless they love you.
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Posted by Sprinkles
on 2008-03-11 14:48:35
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